Portal opening

Ramblings about life . . .

What I share about my life is simply to help reinforce the understanding that it is possible to live with love and laughter, in between the tough times.

Life is what we make of it, no matter how harrowing. We accept and embody this with-in ourselves, thereby allowing the energy to manifest outwardly in our reality.

It starts with each one of us as an individual to form the collective consciousness.

Be the dream.

We honour the light and the life within you.

Please be aware - I upload other bloggers' posts and then delete after a month. This is my journey and others help me understand where I am, until they become irrelevant (a few posts excepted).

Sunday, 30 December 2012

Self reliance

Our son was talking to his sister in Australia on Christmas day. They must have been discussing when he’d be moving out and making his own way in the world.

I heard him say, ‘I will do so, when I know I can rely on myself.’

I felt my heart constrict as my vision changed and I found myself looking at his energy field. Being so close to him, I prefer not to do this because it is an invasion of privacy. It was okay when the children were little, but unless there is a very good reason these days, I don’t do so…to him...or anyone else for that matter. Our children have their own paths to walk and it is not my job to interfere…it can be difficult but integrity has always been a big thing for me.

Saturday, 29 December 2012

Anointing with love

Anointing is a word that I had, until recently, associated with religious fervour.

And yet over the last 5 days I have come to realise that it is a sacred ceremony of celebration. By, for example, massaging another with oils, you are in actual fact honouring the person with respect and love. How can this be bad as you pour into their body the love that you feel?

So…anointing has been running around in my head since Sunday. I’d not been sure why, but slowly as the days have unfolded I find that it is a word that is slowly sitting well with me and no longer has the same connotations that I had attached to it previously.

Tuesday, 25 December 2012

New era?

Our relationship is two days old,” hubby announced yesterday afternoon.


“The slate is wiped clean. Forget the past, don’t worry about the future, let’s the focus on the present - we all love presents.”

Um…what you talking about?” I ask all agog and rather puzzled.

Saturday, 22 December 2012

Happy summer solstice!

Happy summer solstice to those in the Southern Hemisphere.

May you be blessed with all your heart's desires manifesting.

Friday, 21 December 2012

Happy winter solstice!

Happy winter solstice to everyone in the Northern Hemisphere.

May you be blessed with all your heart's desires manifesting.

Thursday, 20 December 2012

Veni Vidi Vici

I woke this morning with these words running around in my head "Veni, vidi, vici".

As I'd only done Latin at school for one year, I couldn't quite remember what it meant, so I had to look it up.

I came, I saw, I conquered.

WOW, ya don't say!

Wednesday, 19 December 2012

Gaia's time

It has been a strange sensation growing over the last 4 days of sort of floating. Maybe floating is not a good description. It was kind of like I’d focused on something else, rather than myself and the present time is not about me. I could not figure out what that meant until last night when it struck me that this is Gaia’s time. 

Forgiveness and Empowerment code

I tell ya...the twin-flames, Angaela and Martin are amazing...here is one of their fabulous codes which they are sharing with the world in the light of the latest tragedy in Newtown. Thank you, Martin and Angaela. My love and blessings to you both for all the great work you do.

(oops, forgot to say that once you've read this, it is best to take time out to meditate on this code and allow it to settle within your energy field and body)

Tuesday, 18 December 2012

A fond farewell to time as we know it

Hubby and I were privileged to meet up with twin-flames, Martin and Angaela yesterday at the Royal Observatory, Greenwich.  At the time we did not know why this place specifically, but it simply felt so right to be there.

Angaela, Martin and I
As usual the strong kundalini energy of London is buzzy and vibrant, but very tiring and along with all the other things going on, I was completely zapped last night. I still feel somewhat knocked out.

The four of us wandered around sightseeing and chatting for a while before finally retiring to a pub to talk, eat and take a breather. The conversation flowed easily. Hubby is very good at interacting on the physical level and takes part in the conversation while, I tend to go into another space. He is my link to this physical world.

Monday, 17 December 2012


I came across this piece on FB. 

As a sleep/respiratory practitioner I see this every day in my job.

Someone once explained that they believed the reason they stopped breathing in their sleep is because they astral travel. 

Saturday, 15 December 2012

The King of Swords cutting through the crap

Cutting through the crap

It never ceases to amaze me how much my relationship with hubby mirrors the inner relationship that my male/female aspects have.

It took a while for the walk-in to register in our inner and outer lives…I didn’t quite understand that this would not be the *wow, happily ever after scenario*. Of course it will eventually reach that but obviously (with hindsight) it will take time.

Hubby and I have – I am not sure how to put this – were both in and out of sync with each other. It was quite disconcerting after the comfortable and happy state the soul-mate and I were in before the walk-in happened.

Over the last week…we have gelled. It was gradually occurring and culminated on the night of 12.12.12.

Thursday, 13 December 2012

Intimate Meditation

I created a safe space before we started our meditation yesterday - it wasn't easy as we'd both had a very long day.

I put on Snatam Kaur whose music is excellent at taking you to a place of love and peace.

Hubby and I sat facing each other on the bed, our legs crossed, knees touching. Hehe...okay...I sat with my knees crossed...hubby's legs are too muscular to sit cross legged so he sat spreadeagled...but our knees still touched.

I made sure that there were no hooks from others into our energy fields/chakras as well as requested our unseen teams to clear out any energy that is not ours that we had allowed to be dumped in our field.

Tuesday, 11 December 2012

The fires of transformation...and the Divine Masculine

Blimmin’ heck…things are hotting up!

So much so, it floored me completely. We are all clearing clearing clearing and clearing some more so that the Divinity within shines through.

In the early hours of Sunday morning I woke with the most excruciating headache…it felt like someone was digging around inside my brain. Oh…the nausea and diarrhoea!!

As much as I would like to point to the dinner we had Saturday when we ate out as the culprit - I know better.

Thursday, 6 December 2012

Can karezza help heal women's sexual wounds?

I apologise if this re-posting created the impression that it was my hubby's letter...it is not. It is another happy man.

Re-posted from the Reuniting blog.

(Post by husband in his 50s, recently remarried) This post will be at least a start of relating some of the highlights of what we have learned in our practice of karezza for the first 6 1/2 months of our karezza marriage.

Monday, 3 December 2012

We are batting so far out of my field of understanding....but I am loving it!

I am batting so far out of the field of understanding that maybe what I am going to write about might seem incomprehensible. It may be so for now, but who knows how much change the energies will bring about.

For me the most telling lately is the synchronicities happening. What hubby and I (together with many others in this field of sexuality) are doing is laying the gridwork for the new world. So what may seem totally unbelievable now, may slowly but surely settle within you, so subtly that you won’t notice it.

In no way am I saying that what everyone else is experiencing is wrong. It is merely my observations of what it is for me…and hubby. You may understand it differently and that is okay and perfect.

Sunday, 2 December 2012

A glimpse of the future NOW

The time out ‘friendship’ and only ‘doing/being’ meditations of quiet love that hubby and I have experienced these long months has finally paid off. Mostly we have been so busy and extraordinarily tired to do much of anything other than meditate for short amounts of time together...but it has all been for a good reason. It has been re-setting, re-calibrating and helping us to re-member.

As we have been adjusting and going through changes within that have reflected in our outer world, it has seemed chaotic and there did not appear to be any specific pattern. Now with hindsight I can see that there is a pattern.

It felt so right to move into lovemaking last night and the depth of the stillness and beauty of intimacy and love was our reward.

The past few months have been somewhat hectic and will continue to be so until 22 December. My last night of work is 21 December and then I am on holiday for two weeks of R&R.

Tuesday, 27 November 2012

Zorbing our way into a new paradigm

Everything…and I mean everything is being re-defined, re-calibrated and re-set.

Man alive, it makes for a very curious ‘stew’ of elation and ‘oh shit’. It feels like we’re in a Zorb ball bouncing our way into a new way of being – exhilarated and nauseous. And yet it curiously feels okay.

Passion and desire are taking on new meanings. My attention has been drawn to the blog I wrote in March 2011 called ‘Happy to be known as a Pleasurina’. In this I stated that this focus on the feminine was a bit jarring and I didn’t understand it.

Thursday, 22 November 2012

Through the mists of time

Through the mists of time…the foggy veil that covers my memories…the shadowy figures that have been hovering in the background are starting to make themselves known.

As I have walked this path, I pick up snippets of teachings as I go along. I examine and experience each one and if it resonates I keep it, otherwise I throw it away. This jigsaw puzzle of my making is unique to me and suits me and my truth as I travel constantly changing and morphing as something new is added.

Mostly it broadens the knowledge that I have collected through experience so that it makes more sense…to me…and maybe others…but the importance is it is valuable to me and is adapted to me and my truth.

Wednesday, 21 November 2012

There's that word 'control'...again

Let go! 

This theme has been shoved in my face today (and in preceding days). Stop trying to 'fix it' for others.

I keep catching myself taking responsibility for others – a pattern I thought I’d mostly resolved – but clearly not as I am revisiting it again lately. Each time I try – it all falls apart in a big way. It makes me slightly mad that I have spent so much time and trouble only to find out those involved don’t really appreciate it. And in reality...it is not my place to fix anything for anyone else...so mostly the anger I feel is directed at myself for being such a dimwit.

Monday, 19 November 2012

Understandings and insights?

Knowledge has hit me with a bolt of lightning! I tell ya there is nothing like getting zapped by 1,000,000 watts of electricity to make your hair stand on end and your brain cells sizzle :-).

I’ve laid off writing anything on my blog about the insights I’ve had as there are too many to even contemplate uploading…and it pretty much would take up all my blog...and time.

Just before the swap or ‘change over’ of entities, hubby and I had to go through some building of the sexual energy. At the time it was uncomfortable but we hung in there.

Thursday, 15 November 2012

Slow and cautious 'evil genius'!

On Monday night a colleague and I were discussing my and hubby's future plans of travelling. As we plan to do quite a bit, hubby is buying an extra four weeks of holiday so that we can do all this travelling. Of course, I did not even think about myself and how much holiday time I would need.

So as the words were coming out of my mouth, I felt some resonance within me and a while later it suddenly hit me that this could possibly be the reason (very sneaky) that I have suddenly upped and decided to resign.

I know it will take them a while as they need to fill three vacancies and people for our kinda job are difficult to find.

Monday, 12 November 2012

Heart mandala of creation

Last night whilst lying waiting for sleep to engulf me I knew that there had to be a major solar flare.

Each time this occurs my skin gets super sensitive and it is difficult to find a comfortable position. I can’t have the duvet on me because I get too hot, but if I kick it off I get too cold. Even simply having a sheet on me gets too much.

I’ve stopped asking how long it will take before I can sleep. It will take as long as it takes. Kinda like asking how long is a piece of string.

So while I am lying there tossing and turning, pulling the sheet or duvet over me and then kicking it off rhythmically, I notice that my heart is projecting a mandala that is hovering above me. I’ve often seen mandalas around me, but this has not occurred for a while.

Sunday, 11 November 2012

How we view abundance is changing

Fork in the road


Hmm…where do I start?

I sorta feel like I’m living in a twilight zone.

Wednesday morning I woke up and decided, ‘something’s gotta give’.

I discussed my impending resignation with two colleagues…basically so that I could figure out whether I was doing this for me or whether I had my own agenda of trying to get a point across. I went to sleep on Wednesday night creating the intention that I would be guided accordingly

Tuesday, 6 November 2012

Dance of the seven veils

I had a very deep meditation about 5 days ago during which time I was in a temple dancing with other women, many of whom I recognised from this current life. We were dancing the dance of the seven veils. We were so happy and really loved and enjoyed what we were doing.

I cannot remember too much in detail what happened but the next thing we were all standing around a mound of earth looking down into a well in the middle. It was rimmed with a circle of steel and a cross in the middle. I heard the words, ‘The well has dried up’.

The distress I experienced was so real I came back with a bump from this meditation. All the images were slightly jumbled and it has taken me until today to sort everything out into some sort of sequence.

Monday, 5 November 2012

The button-pushing TF walk-in!

Walk-ins are souls who incarnate directly into a mature physical body with the full agreement of the soul that was born into the body. In many cases the original soul has completed its initial mission, and, therefore, agrees to leave and make its body available to another soul, rather than go through physical death. In more recent times, many souls are deciding not to move through the dimensional shift that Earth is undergoing, and they are consequently leaving the human realm, making their bodies available for "Walk-in" souls. 

Many of the souls who are now incarnating through the Walk-in process are from the same celestial origins as the Indigo Children. Consequently, they exhibit many if not all, similar characteristics. The adaptation issues for these souls who incarnate as Walk-ins are somewhat different than those who come into embodiment through natural birth. Following are some examples:

Saturday, 3 November 2012

Building castles in the sky


I started writing this yesterday…

The move to our ‘new life and home’ seems eminent…so much so that I feel myself living and experiencing it most of the time. And when I realise where I actually am, I initially feel a smidgen of disappointment and then a great deal of excitement about what the future holds.

It is so real at times that when I walk outside into the garden, I am surprised to see that I am still here.

Thursday, 1 November 2012

Balancing pessimism with optimism

I amended this later on when I realised I'd not said what I really wanted to say.
My definition of pessimism - the fear of believing that change for the better is possible.

Some might quantify this as being 'realistic'...which is a view I used to subscribe to.

Dictionary meaning - someone who is resigned to defeat without offering positive suggestions.

Haven’t we all felt this at one time or another? As the years have gone by, I have found myself more optimistic than pessimistic. Clearing the inner emotional debris has certainly helped.

Optmists have faith in everything around them. We understand there is a purpose.

Tuesday, 30 October 2012

Laying the foundation of relationships

I must say that one thing has been puzzling me for a while about the commitment made by hubby and me in September. I hope I can communicate this puzzle well. Today I seem to have found some rather vague clarity about this puzzle whilst writing the previous blog...

The sexual aspect of our relationship seems to have taken a back seat…well mostly it has :-). I’m not sure why. Is it to do with how we are changing our relationship with each other and so the sexual energy changes?

Our energy interactions are different too. And yet all of this points toward friendship more than sexual partners. Which, as you might understand, sorta puzzles me because this is not where I expected to go. Not sure if I have explained this very well.

We are still sexually active in a different way as the emphasis has been more on friendship, trust and love rather than sex.

What a strange old week...

What a strange old week it’s been. Change all around once again…I’m having difficulty keeping up!

In September I had a dream that someone approached me at work and asked me if I would take over the managerial job. Eh?

I asked why and was told that our manager had resigned! I asked what was wrong with the tech above me doing it but it seems that she had her hands full with other stuff. I pretty much ignored that dream. I do have prophetic dreams quite often but I just figured this was simply my mind working overtime…until this week.

Huh…guess who has resigned and decided to go back to Australia -our manager.

Wednesday, 24 October 2012

Manifesting heart's desire

On the odd occasion I’ve wondered why I’ve been gifted with a twin-flame love in the physical. It is merely curiosity – me and my analytic brain trying to find the why’s and wherefore’s.

As far as I am concerned…and it is a long held belief…my inner sacred union of masculine and feminine is far more important than the outer one. Hmm…okay that sounds slightly ungrateful…I’m not, believe me, but curious as to the logic (if you can call it logic) behind this manifestation.

To be honest, I’ve never ever considered having a twin-flame in the flesh…it somehow happened without little ol’ me knowing it would. Well, I didn’t know…until the last moment.

Monday, 22 October 2012

The Infinity Symbol

The infinity symbol – figure of 8 – is very much prominent these days.

My engagement ring, I discovered on holiday, is created as an infinity symbol. I’d never really looked at it before then. One of the symbols is slightly above the other - the top symbol joined by its lower circle to the top circle of the bottom symbol.

It started off as two figures of 8 that were conjoined by the diamond (which represents the heart). Earlier this week I noticed that it was starting to ‘open up’/unfurl – which is the only way I can describe it. It seemed that there was a third figure of 8 between the two which represented our relationship.

Sunday, 21 October 2012

Turn inward to find love

An extract from Diane Richardson's book - Tantric Love: Feeling Vs Emotion:

Love is overflowing joy. Love is when you have seen who you are; then there is nothing left except to share your being with others. Love is when you have seen that you are not separate from existence. Love is when you have felt an organic, orgasmic unity with all that is. Love is not a relationship. Love is a state of being; it has nothing to do with anybody else. One is not in love, one is love. And of course when one is love, one is in love – but that is an outcome, a byproduct, that is not the source. The source is that one is love. -  Osho, transcribed teachings, The Guest, Vol. 6

Saturday, 20 October 2012

You are everything, you are nothing

Mirror image
"We live in illusion and the appearance of things. There is a reality. We are that reality. When you understand this, you see that you are nothing, and being nothing, you are everything. That is all." - Buddha

It is at this stage that I wish I could remember what Aeolus showed me one night in a dream. It had something to do with hubby and I…and the fact that we are something more than twin-flames. I remember seeing a flame and getting an understanding as the flame did something...but that is all.

I’ve done a Google search, on the odd occasion when I’ve thought about it, to see if I could get any more information but essentially came up with twin-flames all the time, although once I did see a twin ray, but I cannot say for sure that this is what he meant.

Thursday, 11 October 2012

Past lives and how they impact on our life

I received this email from Susan Holland yesterday.

‘What I was directed to by the Akashic record guides was a clearing of old male energy between the two of you.  Around 3,000 years ago.  They say this is the tale end of yours and his male relationship over the centuries. 

What has been cleared of its discordant energies will release an old male aspect of soul energy between you both.  It's a situation where you felt you harmed him.  He was, in some way, your disciple.  And it feels like he was a young disciple, around the age he is now.  You were male in this incarnation and used your power to bully him.  That is the message I get from his old male aspect from this.

Saint-Guilhem-le-Desert and surrounds, France


Saint-Guilhem-le-Desert - "Situated in a valley near Montpellier in southern France, the Benedictine abbey of Saint-Guilhem-le-D├ęsert was founded in 804 by Guilhem (Guillaume) au Court-Nez, duke of Aquitaine and a member of Charlemagne's court."

Wednesday, 10 October 2012

Heart tugs

My heart is being tugged all over the place at the mo.


Where do I start?

Our daughter’s partner is being advised to have surgery as his broken neck is not healing properly. Poor kids are stressed as it is, so this is just a bombshell they don’t need. I want to take them both, hold them, cocoon them from the outside world and make it better.

Our son is struggling emotionally with all the transmuting he does. I have offered to help him out or find someone to help him, but he has refused…so he sinks deeper and deeper into himself and finds it difficult to be in the outer world. Again, I want to hold him, cocoon him from the outside world and make it better.

I must honour the path they have both chosen to walk…but damn, it is so hard.

Saturday, 6 October 2012

Creating through love

As we were making meditative love this morning I felt expanded…as though I was Mother Earth and hubby was the elements…the sun, the wind, the rain, the leaves, the insects, the butterflies etc.

All of these kiss and touch Mother Earth and love her to their fullest capacity.

We first started practising meditative love making last year when Aeolus integrated with hubby for one brief moment in time last year in July. We would move between ‘hot’ tantra and cool meditative love making without realising we were embracing bits and pieces of Karezza.It simply felt right.

Our meditative love making practice grows daily and through this so called abstinence (which isn’t really abstinence) we are creating the most amazing reality. Admittedly there have been times when the bliss is too much and we have been gently carried over the edge into orgasm…long languid orgasm.

Friday, 5 October 2012

Cocoon of love

Just the two of us’ seems to be a theme since we arrived home two weeks ago.

Our son is staying with a friend whose parents are away on holiday. The universe was obviously making sure that this theme continued.

The contented and happy world hubby and I are living in currently seems surreal. All around us there is chaos as everyone seems to be having a hard time.

But you know what? I don’t feel any guilt this time. Why?

It has been explained to me that there needs to be a few ‘somebodies’ who are in a good space as this ‘good space’ needs to be anchored.

Of course we have a few niggles that come up…but these are dealt with so quickly and effortlessly…it seems so much easier to let go and move on.

Wednesday, 3 October 2012

Earth is Singing Like a Whale, says NASA


That’s the sound of the Earth “singing,” as recorded by the awesomely-named Storm Probe mission — a couple of satellites investigating the famous Van Allen belts, intense radiation zones that surround our planet like a doughnut. The Storm Probes, launched last month, are mapping the density of charged particles.

Tuesday, 2 October 2012

London Paralympics 2012

This was not something either of us had ever considered.

A few weeks before the Olympics started, Greg decided to try for tickets for the Paralympics. I have no idea what drove him to do so, but I reckon we needed to be there.

Tickets were available on Sunday, 2 September, so he bought them.

Monday, 1 October 2012

21-23 September 2012 (including hand-fasting)

Hubby's vows to me

Excerpt from my diary - 21-23 Sept 2012

21 September 2012

I don’t feel much like sharing lately, so I will merely say that every time I transmute something huge for the collective…it helps me…mostly because when everyone moves up…so do I. Service to Others always has its rewards and I so much love and am honoured to do the job…even though at the time it can be hard. But as the collective move up a massive jump it can be disorientating for all of us. It is kinda like a huge wave of energy that sweeps us up into the next vibration.

Good thing I am on holiday this time so I can relax.

Sunday, 30 September 2012

Wednesday 19 September 2012

My nutter of a hubby :-)
Excerpt from my diary - 19 Sept 2012

Once again dreams last night that I cannot remember. We slept a long 10 hour sleep waking very late.

We meditated…but this time it was merely meditating as friends rather than a couple. We’d decided to go to the beach but as I was getting ready I kinda felt like I didn’t really want to go…but we went anyway. I’d planned, whilst having breakfast, on making another essence today, which I remembered as we walked out the door…but shrugged and thought it could wait.

We got to the beach but it was slightly overcast and cool. We sat for about an hour and then left to come back to the maison where the sun was shining brightly.

Friday, 28 September 2012

Spiritual whiplash

I returned to work on Tuesday night and found a notice on the wall saying Wellbeing Day or something like that. It was a day for hospital workers to go and find out about nutrition, yoga, Zumba, physiotherapy and…alternative therapies of Reiki, Emotrance and hypnotherapy.

Yesterday as I was running the CPAP clinic during the day, the HR ladies came down to ask if any of us were going to take up the 20 minute slots to try out what was being offered as they thought it was imperative that we take time out of our busy schedules to ‘look after ourselves’. She emphasised that other Trusts have been doing this for a while and our Trust wanted to do the same and make sure that they were looking after the wellbeing of their staff.

Years ago I’d approached HR and asked if I could set up meditation and healing clinics for the hospital workers and was told NO. So I figured it wasn’t time or for me and all I had to do was shine my light so that change would happen. Actually now that I think about it…the lady in charge of HR has recently retired…

Tuesday 18 September 2012

Lunch - the Canal is on the other side of parked cars

Excerpt from my diary - 18 Sept 2012

I had three very profound dreams last night. I woke after each, thought about them in the hope that in the morning I’d remember.

I wish I could remember these dreams because I know they were about relationships…but sadly my brain is not releasing any information. I suppose it will come back to me in time.

I have been mulling over how the divine masculine and feminine will/should work. As none of us have any idea – or rather we do but it is deep within the recesses of our memories – it is pretty much a mystery and there is a great deal of speculation.

Thursday, 27 September 2012

Monday 17 September 2012

Small harbour on the Etang de Thau

Excerpt from my diary - 17 Sept 2012

Saturday morning when we tried to meditate, some music started playing. It was coming from the community centre in the valley below. Normally it doesn’t bother me, but this time it felt uncomfortable.

We decided to go to the beach.

Sunday was paintballing day in the valley below. Last year it did not bother us but this time it did. We went out to the chateau and whilst we were there I developed a slight headache. I felt like there was something I should be ‘seeing’ but I didn’t want to, so I blocked it...and yeah I knew why we were there...but again...didn't want to know.

Sunday 16 September 2012

Excerpt from my diary - 16 Sept 2012

I have been cold since we arrived in France, despite the hot weather. I thought it was something to do with fear, because fear makes us cold.

But today I found out why. All my energy is concentrated in a long column of energy that runs from soul star chakra to earth star chakra through the middle of my body, and therefore my extremities like arms/hands and legs/feet have less energy.

We are transmuting together and are far more powerful because of it.

We were guided to go and visit the Chauteau. We have been visiting Castries for years and every time we have either arrived too late and missed the ‘open’ day to visit the gardens or it will happen once we leave.

Wednesday, 26 September 2012

Astrology reading by Rod Suskin - 30 April 1998

When I upload any of these things that I have done - such as the codes downloads, the readings, etc. it is not because I am blowing my trumpet...I merely want everyone to understand that there is a deeper meaning to everything in our life. We are not simply plodding along and existing. These readings give us valuable insights into who we are and we can use them to help us move forward in our quest for mastership. Of course the trick is not to become too slavish about it.

Tuesday, 25 September 2012

The engagement - 14 September 2012

Excerpt from my diary - 14 Sept 2012

We were engaged at 11:11 today (14 September 2012).

It might seem like a really wonderful thing to happen, but it wasn’t without it’s stresses and strains.

We’d left the UK at 4.45pm in the afternoon on Thursday. The ferry was almost empty. We have never experienced this before. No queues inside or out.

We had an amazing meal and then sat and chatted before going to Duty Free to buy some Maltezers to keep us going through the night.

All seemed okay.

Monday, 24 September 2012

My Comprehensive Numerical Blueprint Reading with Amy Landerman

This is a very long transcript of the 1 and a half hours of reading with Amy Landerman.

I found that having this reading now at my age is very helpful, especially being where I am in life and I can understand what she is talking about...more so than I would have at, for example, the age 30.

So here is the reading - I have highlighted the numbers and the layers. Many of us will have similar numbers in our energy field and body. No one person is "better" another - each one of us is on our own unique journey. I have uploaded my reading simply to give you an understanding of numerology and how it can help you on your journey.

Sunday, 9 September 2012

On holiday

I am on holiday now and will be leaving for France during the week where we will have our hand-fasting. The High Priest and High Priestess who will 'officiate' this hand-fasting will be Athena and Aeolus.

Whilst we are there, I have also been asked to do some healing to the Mediterranean. This kinda surprised me as it is not something I've ever considered doing...but it seems it is needed. Although now that I think about it...maybe transmute is a better word rather than healing. I will transmute any negative energy and replace it with love.

My reading with Amy Landerman on Friday was fascinating. She confirmed a great deal that I had 'known' - that I am here to transmute, hold the balance and anchor certain energies - that is my main goal as a master soul.

Wow...did she fill in the blanks for me that were quite mind boggling - well, to me they were! I won't bore you with the details but if you feel you would like to....you can read the transcript.

The energy of disappointment

From a friend on FB -
My two cents worth: When someone disappoints us - we get angry, resentful or hate them for what 'they have done to us...'

I just listened to a talk by Matt Kahn... about the energies of September. 
One of the things he touched upon was the energy of disappointment and how whenever we feel disappointment, it's the Universe handing us back our power. I thought it was really good, so here is some of it: 
The Theme of Disappointment... is a means of freeing you from your limiting beliefs, ideas, projections and assumptions. Shatter illusions of definitions... live as if this moment is your last again and again and again. Disappointment is life's way of handing you back your power when you unknowingly gave your power away to someone in your life. We give away our power simply by defining people with a certain role...as "here's who they are in my life." And if they do anything outside of that "role," we're immediately disappointed as if they are acting out of character.

Tuesday, 4 September 2012

New phase?

Hubby asked me the other day why I seem to be sharing other people's stuff on my blog. He thought the blog was meant to be about my experiences.

Haha...yeah, well it was.

I hadn't really noticed this change until he pointed it out. Seems I'm heading for a new phase in my life.

The ending of one section and the start of a new? I don't know. What I do know is that the need to share is not as strong as it used to be, so for the time being I will continue to upload other's work and maybe do a bit of my own in between.

Whatever is incubating with-in me is not yet ready to show itself to the world.


I've been busy sitting in my garden with my laptop, writing an email to a friend telling her that today I feel a tad confused...as though things have changed so much that I have landed up on a different boat and wasn't aware that I'd done so...until I looked around me.

When I'd sent it I looked up into the sky...and found about 40 seagulls above me flying in circles. Even though I live far from the coast, it is normal to see or hear the odd gull...but this many...and circling above me?

Monday, 3 September 2012

A beautiful day filled with love

What a loving and beautiful experience yesterday was!

When hubby managed to get the tickets, he had no idea what events we’d be watching…but of course the Universe and our HSs would make sure that it was absolutely perfect…and the significance of what I was seeing was not lost on me :-)

Relationships are my main focus mostly due to my own relationship…and the other very important relationship...that which we have with ourselves. We are in a relationship with the world around us, which is reflected in our relationship with-in ourselves.

Sunday, 2 September 2012


I have not been watching the Paralympic much until last night, when I sat down to watch a little bit of cycling, swimming and running.

Wow, these athletes are amazing.

I am off to the Paralympics today to watch athletics in the main stadium and therefore I've turned my attention to this...and as I did with the Olympics, am sending love into the main stadium from 7pm until 7am every day to change the energy.

Watching the athletes last night I felt the total joy and happiness these delightful BEings feel when they take part. The Olympics is meant to celebrate prowess and these athletes have overcome to much to be where they are. How can we deny them their little bit of time in the Sun?

Massive changes waiting patiently

I am aware of massive change in our life waiting on the periphery.

Every time I try and focus on it, it disappears. Kinda like when you see movement out of the corner of your eye and when you look, there is nothing there.

So I suppose I must be patient and allow it to unfold as it should. Good thing I don’t know what it is, cos I have a habit of fogging things up a little by pre-empting.

Saturday, 1 September 2012

Number Sequences from the Angels

As my attention has been drawn with great frequency lately to numbers, I found Doreen Virtue's quite comprehensive number sequences. I have played around with an amateur version of numerology for years...

Because of these persistent numbers, I wondered if I needed to have a proper in-depth numerology reading done...and voila! Amy Landerman appeared through various synchronicities...so I have booked a Comprehensive Numerical Blueprint reading with her on Friday, 7th September.

Friday, 31 August 2012

Blunt and to the point

Snigger…I came downstairs this morning to make myself a plunger of coffee.

While waiting for the kettle to boil I wandered into the downstairs bathroom and discovered this beautifully framed notice hanging on the wall over the toilet.

Thursday, 30 August 2012

I'm a happy bunny

I can so feel myself living in a house made by nature, which has been strong for quite a few months. I wrote a blog about this - My dream grotto.

And it seems that nature is feeling this pull too as they all move into my house.

We found a tiny tiny praying mantis in the kitchen, we have a colony of spider webs (some indoors) outdoors, a contingent of house sparrows living in our roof and constantly foraging in our massive rose creeper...and yesterday we discovered that a caterpillar of the Large Cabbage butterfly has made its way indoors and has spun its cocoon on the inside wall by the back door.

Sitting outside yesterday, a Red Admiral butterfly landed on me, flew away and then came back. It sat on my chest for a while merely opening and closing its wings to some unknown pulse that I couldn't hear.

Wednesday, 29 August 2012

Revealing the Light in the Dark

Thanks Ewa for bringing this blog to my attention :-)

There is a universal need to transform our personal demons of fear, anger, ignorance, jealousy, confusion, unwothiness, shame... the aspects that Jung described as our shadow; those parts of ourselves that the conscious mind deems unacceptable. It is the parts we don't want others to know about, and yet they appear in our dreams or manifest in exaggerated form in those around us.

We can see clearly those aspects in others but are reluctant to own them in ourselves. However, we only have to look into the mirror of the other to begin to make conscious the darkness within.

If we look at what we most despise in others, we usually see one of our own demons reflected back. We often ridicule and criticise others who embody something we are trying to repress in ourselves. I smile to myself when I recall a time when I heard myself say "I hate judgemental people!" Hmmmm...

When we repress the shadow we set up a battle within, tying up energy and resources that could be put to far better use, we block our experience of freedom.  However, when we name and recognise our inner demons, the magic of the light in the darkness can be released. Our demons can become our daemons, good and benevolent spirits.