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Ramblings about life . . .

What I share about my life is simply to help reinforce the understanding that it is possible to live with love and laughter, in between the tough times.

Life is what we make of it, no matter how harrowing. We accept and embody this with-in ourselves, thereby allowing the energy to manifest outwardly in our reality.

It starts with each one of us as an individual to form the collective consciousness.

Be the dream.

We honour the light and the life within you.

Please be aware - I upload other bloggers' posts and then delete after a month. This is my journey and others help me understand where I am, until they become irrelevant (a few posts excepted).

Saturday, 31 December 2016

Happy New Year!

Happy New Year to all. May 2017 be spectacularly wonderful.

Let's get the party started.

Saturday, 24 December 2016

Happy Holidays!!

May your holiday time be good and the new year be beyond your wildest dreams.

Friday, 16 December 2016

Hot flushes of cleansing

Last night when I climbed into bed, I lay thinking about a few things and suddenly got all hot and sweaty...a hot flush.

Oh dear god, I thought, not again. I so hate this. On this occasion I directed my anger at Athena.

Sunday, 11 December 2016

Consciousness leap

In the last week or so, our lovemaking has taken a leap up into the realms of, for want of a better word, Universal.

Each time we make a leap in consciousness, our lovemaking takes a leap too.

Saturday, 10 December 2016


Judgement seems to be a big thing at the moment for me...and possibly for the world at large?

I kinda thought I'd cleared judgement from within but clearly not.

It's come to a head this week both at home and at work.

Friday, 9 December 2016

Water water everywhere

"Booboo", I hear as I sit here on the deck on this lovely, slightly overcast, but warm day.

It is my neighbour calling for his little black cat, who seems to spend most of his time at our place. He is Mini Me's mini me. Our cats tolerate him, cos he's a little guy, who has these big eyes, which make him always look surprised/wonder-eyed at the world. He's tried a few times to play with our two, but they just get up and walk away.

Tuesday, 6 December 2016

Holding open the gateway

We meditated together on Saturday morning, prior to our friends arriving.

I could see the thousands of “sails” between us becoming one big sail. The stitching invisible as each sail was added, everything off white, as though a blank canvas.

Beyonce the chicken

We had friends to stay this weekend.

Friday, 2 December 2016

Hmm...too bad

So, this morning started well.

Greg: We shouldn't water the garden in the evening, cos it attracts the slugs.

Me: Yes, I know, which is why I normally water in the morning.

Tuesday, 29 November 2016

Sailing ships

I'd like to say that I understand what happened this weekend, but I don't.

I know that some part of me does, but the human me is completely mystified.


This song came up on my play list.

I think it is relevant to many situations faced in the world today, not just South Africa.

Such a great song from my youth.

Sunday, 27 November 2016

Stronger than before

This weekend has been a rather peaceful chilled one.

Mostly because of the rain and wind. I believe it is normal to have a lot of wind in the spring, but not normal to have so much rain.

We spent the afternoon in an intimate way.

Friday, 25 November 2016

Waiwera and surrounds (New Zealand)

I mentioned previously that we went to Waiwera a few weekends ago to stay with friends. Their apartment is beautifully tucked away on the lush hillside overlooking the Waiwera Thermal Resort. It is beautiful. These are the photos.

The answers lay with-in

Over the last two months I've applied for several things, but have heard nothing after the initial answer. I'll go back over my emails to find the acknowledgement but they are nowhere to be found. I call to find out and there is no record at all of me ever applying!?


Sunday, 20 November 2016

Ngatea Water Gardens, New Zealand

We visited the Ngatea Water Gardens. It was the funniest hour and half we've had in a while.

Lol...the signs everywhere had us laughing out loud or giggling as we walked around admiring the beautiful water gardens. It was well worth the visit

Friday, 18 November 2016

Hoo boy, I can feel myself caving in

Hoo boy, I can feel myself caving in. Help!

Our son works for Hamilton Animal Control as a kennel assistant. He cleans out the kennels, feeds (if needed, medicates) and, once these practical bits are done, he takes the dogs out to exercise and play with them.

Thursday, 17 November 2016

What are the chances?

Phew! It's been a week of happenings. I'm so pleased I am finished working for the week.

As Greg was walking past a store selling carpets, most of them out on the sidewalk, a guy randomly asked him, "Hey bro, do you think they have any magic carpets?" In a typically Kiwi fashion he shouted the question, "Hey bro, got any magic carpets. We wanna go for a ride."

Tuesday, 15 November 2016

Influencing our reality

I took part in the Round The Bridges this past Sunday, raising money for the Starship Children's Hospital.

It was a fun morning. Got a few bananas, a medal and some water for my effort!

Greg followed us taking photos.

Slam dunk

Credit card slam dunk

These words woke me up. I can only assume that I was dreaming. But the words were said so loudly and forcefully that it woke me.

What the hell does that mean? There has to be some significance/message that I am not getting.

Friday, 11 November 2016

Berry, Australia

Berry - "is a small Australian town in the Shoalhaven region of the NSW South Coast in the state of New South Wales, located 145 km (90 mi) south of the state capital, Sydney."

Whilst we were staying in Gerringong (Christmas 2013), we did some sightseeing and one of the towns we visited was Berry, before driving up into the surrounding mountains.  Every time we visit Australia, we always take a drive to Berry, one of our favourite towns. It's atmosphere is so inviting. Little shops filled with so much.

Alchemical change

11/11 today!

Strange to think that we are in the future compared to most of the world.

I've found out why we needed the creative sacral energy to build in strength.

Tuesday, 8 November 2016

Colour My World

Colour My World by Petula Clark has been running around in my head for the last few days.

It took me a while to find the song cos (of course) I don't know the lyrics...just knew that sunshine was involved.

It is such a joyful song, how can a person not feel happy listening to this?

Friday, 4 November 2016

I'm in the mood for dancing

I feel really good today. Got a slight headache but I figure that must have something to do with the downloading strong energy pouring into the month of November.

Tuesday, 1 November 2016

Don't dream it, be it

We went to the local theatre to see Rocky Horror on Friday night. What a hoot!

It wasn't the slick production we'd seen in London. But the enthusiasm of the actors and the audiences' heckling made it a night to remember. Lol...it was definitely the raunchiest production I've ever seen!

Friday, 28 October 2016

Creating security

Our son and I are off to see Dr Strange this morning.

It is a ritual that we have. Whenever there is a new Marvel or DC movie that makes its appearance, we go and see it.

Tuesday, 25 October 2016

Happy to be home

I'm back from the Sleep DownUnder 2016 conference in Adelaide, Australia. I'm so happy to be home and sleeping in my own bed, surrounded by my family.

Tuesday, 18 October 2016

Uncomfortable situation

I am sort of looking forward to being in Adelaide for various reasons but on the other hand, I'm not. It is great to network with other sleep labs, but...

Well, I've come to realise one aspect of why I am here in NZ.

Monday, 17 October 2016

It takes while to ground into a new home

The song by REM called The One I Love has been playing in my head for the last two days.

I've been ignoring it until I sat down to write this post. So as I was curious I looked up the words and discovered that it is not a love song but about collapse instead. Using "props" to keep us occupied and distracted in this world.

Wednesday, 5 October 2016

Sydney visit

I am flying out to Sydney tomorrow for five days.  Unfortunately Greg won't be coming with me due to work committments.

Kawhia, Aotea and hot water beach

We visited Kawhia and Aotea - known as the "land that time forgot".

According to the Hamilton & Waikato website:

"One of the Hamilton & Waikato’s, and indeed New Zealand’s, best kept secrets is Kawhia Hot Water Beach. Head down to Ocean Beach in Kawhia at low tide, clamber over the sand dunes and stroll down onto the beach. Find your spot and start digging for an instant natural hot water spa, with stunning views to match."

Friday, 30 September 2016


This morning I felt the need to put Blurred Lines on and actually listen to the lyrics watching the video. Curious to know why the video and words were slightly off-putting, I looked up the lyrics and found out that it is about -

Wasn't September a hoot?

Well, hasn't September been a hoot?

Many of the days (numerologically-wise) have been triple numbers too to add to the whammy that has been this month.

The month ends with a black moon tonight - lol - remember I might be a day ahead of you and in the future already!

Sunday, 25 September 2016

Gay Pride and Rocky Horror

We went to the lauch of the Hamilton Pride Festival a couple of weeks ago. A happy night filled with dancing, cabarets and jokes.

It's an underground movement here in Hamilton, which is largely a rural community  Being gay here is not quite as accepted as it is in the cities. But having said that, there is a gay pub opening in the next month on the main street.

Friday, 23 September 2016

Job satisfaction

I really enjoy my job. I enjoy the fact that I hold a safe space for people to explore making a difference in their life...and I get paid to do it.

Job satisfaction is always important. Being in service as a wayshower takes many forms. Mine is to hold a safe space for others. I don't ram my opinion down their throat, I simply explain what is happening and why and leave them to make up their own mind. I know some physiologists are very...um...forceful and this can piss someone off something terrible. I've heard some of my colleagues called some very choice words, lol!

Sunday, 18 September 2016


Relationships in all shapes and forms are being thrown into the spotlight these days.

Reckon it's got something to do with the lunar eclipse and all that other stuff that is so prevalent in September, forcing us, whether we want it or not, to take note of our inner prejudices and negativities. You know, those thoughts and feelings that are floating around creating havoc in our lives that we are unaware of...or maybe are aware of and couldn't be bothered to do something about.

Walpurgis Witch Dance 2016

How cool is this. A different version of belly dancing and the shimmy belt.

Reminds of my belly dancing days, but we never dressed up as witches!

Saturday, 17 September 2016

I've done it again

A song was playing on the radio today.

I've never been one to take much notice of lyrics but sometimes the words penetrate my foggy consciousness and I try to figure out what is being sung.

Friday, 16 September 2016

Safer hours

The RMOs here in New Zealand are campaigning for better rostering of hours. I know it was something of a problem that the UK is trying to sort out as well.

Would you want a doctor to tend to you or your loved ones when they are so exhausted/overworked that they cannot function properly?

Safer hours - NZRDA

Here today, gone tomorrow

Oh no!

Beyonce is gone. We've not seen or heard her this week. I've even checked in the trees regularly, but no, she is not there. I'm hoping she is not in someone's pot, but rather decided she wanted to go walkabout and explore the world.

Which has sort of put a bummer on our happy days. She'd become a part of our lives as she strutted around the garden, clucking contentedly. We were even thinking of finding her a buddy to be feral with.

Beyonce is/was a chicken with attitude, who took no nonsense from the cats of the neighbourhood and brought a ray of sunshine into our lives every day, in spite of her disdain of us mere mortals. A very capable chicken indeed who will be sorely missed.

Thursday, 8 September 2016

Turning things around

On reading Jennifer Hoffman's Energy Report for September, I realised how far we've come.

Sometimes you need to go back to discover just how far.

Monday, 22 August 2016

A weekend of reminiscing

Well, Ashlee is here.

I cannot tell you how great it is to have her energy in the house. It has been slightly testosterone-heavy since she left in 2010.

I've been wading through this unbalanced field since.

Saturday, 20 August 2016

Holidays, allergies and detoxing

We're going to spend the weekend in Auckland again.

Our daughter is arriving from Sydney to spend two weeks with us. We'll take her sightseeing, visit family and then come back to Hamilton on Sunday evening.

Wednesday, 10 August 2016

Chippy choppy

It has been four years since the 2012 walk-in. I would love to say it is been a deliriously happy life we lead, but I can't. It has been decidedly choppy since then.

Little did I realise how much of an adjustment it would be for both of us. We're still going through it but so far we are in one piece, slightly battered, a little stronger and, dare I say it, wiser?

Friday, 5 August 2016

Raw food and homeopathy

We met this little fella on one of our walks in Hamilton, snoozing in the sun

One of my kitties is sick with a cold. Having never had a day of illness in his life, he is rather unhappy about this.

The fact that he has a cold reinforces my conviction that vaccinations make things worse rather than help. Both my cats were only ever treated with homeopathy and their yearly "vaccinations" were nosodes. The only time my homeopathic vet in the UK used an antibiotic was when our male cat was involved in a fight and was bitten on his tail. She was worried that if there was an infection it was too close to the spine to leave it to chance.

Saturday, 30 July 2016

Twin-flames and other metaphysical bits and pieces

Now that I am over the period of being in the physical "3rd dimensional world", studying to get myself to this side of the world, I am getting so many nudges to start immersing myself in the "spiritual" side once more.

Sunday, 17 July 2016

Everybody dies, but not everybody lives

Happy place

Lol...New Zealand's night life only starts at 10.30pm and carries on until "late" as per signs on the doors. Most of the restaurants and pubs turn into nightclubs with no cover charge. Some have DJs and others have live bands. Doors are wide open, even in winter. There are outdoor heaters everywhere. Victoria Street in Hamilton is deserted and dead during the day but comes alive after 10pm. You can wander around choosing where you'd like to go. There are so many places available. Queues everywhere as people wait patiently to get into their favourite haunt to dance the night away.

Saturday, 16 July 2016

An unexpected butt kicking

My work colleague that emigrated here from the UK has been giving me some hard-hitting talks this week.

The Universe is now bringing to my attention, my need to let our son go. So much so, that they sent both him and my colleague halfway round the world, following me to make sure I get the message! "Put your breast back in your bra", "it's your fault he is like he is" and "what are you going to do about it?". Geez talk about not mincing words. Really shook me, my first instinct to deny what was going on and continue to bury my head in the sand.

Monday, 11 July 2016

Mangapohue Natural Bridge, Waitomo area of the Waikato, New Zealand

Mangapohue Natural Bridge

The 17 m high limestone arch, which spans the Mangapohue Stream, is all that remains of an ancient cave system. From here the track becomes stepped and passes under the bridge giving a superb view of the ceiling studded with stalactite-like formations and an excellent view back down the gorge.

Sunday, 10 July 2016

Blue Spring (Te Puna), South Waikato, New Zealand

Blue Spring

The walkway is a distance of 4.7 kilometres, with an average walking time of 1.5 hours (3 hours return).

The Waihou Stream is totally spring fed. Water from the Mamaku Plateau takes anywhere from 50-100 years to reach the Blue Spring. Water flows from the spring at a rate of 42 cubic metres per minute (9240 gallons per minute). The water temperature of the Blue Spring is a constant 11 degrees celsius throughout the year.

Monday, 4 July 2016

Moments of breathless excitement

Kia ora from Aotearoa - the land of the long white cloud

It's been a while since I wrote anything or uploaded any photos...having too much fun. Kinda like living the experience without interference.

My hubby and son joined me mid-April and since then we've been on the go, sightseeing and experiencing the spectacular beauty that New Zealand has to offer in between me working.

Monday, 14 March 2016

In the flow

Since setting foot on North Island of Aotearoa, I seem to be in the flow. I decide what I need, and it comes to me without effort. It has been rather nice. Lol...that sounds very English and extremely understated, not being one to rave about awesomeness...

Saturday, 13 February 2016

Monday, 25 January 2016

Getting on with it

In spite of my body not being well, I am capable of getting on with what I need to do.

It is a very strange sensation of working from two perspectives.

Thursday, 21 January 2016

It's arrived

Greg phoned me this morning to tell me that my passport with work visa arrived this morning by courier.

Monday, 18 January 2016

Sunday, 17 January 2016

Brushing up on my knowledge

It is gonna be very strange to be in Manchester. The last time I was there was when we did a three week camping trip around the UK in approximately 2004.

Friday, 15 January 2016

Manifesting something different

I'd accepted a role scoring and reporting on sleep studies at a hospital in Yorkshire two days a week from next week.

Cape Town's South Easter

Haha...I remember those days so well...the South Easterly winds in Cape Town.

The building I worked in used to sway quite alarmingly.

It's also called the Cape Doctor as it would blow away any smog.

Sunday, 10 January 2016

Well looked after

Immigration New Zealand in London have been very patient and understanding of my unlimited amount of questions and worries.

Saturday, 9 January 2016

The scared person behind the obnoxious behaviour

Yesterday at work, a patient whose CPAP trial I had done the previous week, walked in demanding to be seen. He was extremely aggressive and abusive to the frontline staff who tried to help him.

Wednesday, 6 January 2016

It's ready

The SAPCCs are ready for collection!!!


I am so happy I could bust a gut.

Views from Boyes Drive, Cape Town, South Africa


Boyes Drive is a scenic road that climbs the lower slopes of Muizenberg Mountain, providing an elevated route above the shoreline of False Bay that offers panoramic views over Muizenberg beach and the Cape Flats. On a clear day, views include great vistas over False Bay with the Hottentot's Holland Mountain range in the distance.  

This coastal road always reminds me of the Med with its windswept pines.

Some movement

The London Visa Application Centre have acknowledged receipt of my visa application which has now been forwarded for allocating to a case officer.

Sunday, 3 January 2016

Pushing over the fake wall

My hubby lectured me yesterday about my attitude to emigrating. Said it was "weird" not to want to go, as it encompassed all the dreams we'd ever had. Everything we want rolled into one.

Friday, 1 January 2016

New Year wishes

I'm alright...I think

So...last week was a bit of a doozy when it came to stress.

The unfolding drama

Yesterday there was some unfolding drama behind us.

As you can see from the picture above, the fire in the community centre (which is empty and earmarked for demolition) was very close to our house (where the blue arrow is).