Portal opening

Ramblings about life . . .

What I share about my life is simply to help reinforce the understanding that it is possible to live with love and laughter, in between the tough times.

Life is what we make of it, no matter how harrowing. We accept and embody this with-in ourselves, thereby allowing the energy to manifest outwardly in our reality.

It starts with each one of us as an individual to form the collective consciousness.

Be the dream.

We honour the light and the life within you.

Please be aware - I upload other bloggers' posts and then delete after a month. This is my journey and others help me understand where I am, until they become irrelevant (a few posts excepted).

Friday, 30 May 2014

Like a brilliant ray of sunshine

I've been really curious, but patient waiting for the answer, as to why I've felt the need to withdraw from intimate relations.

I thought I was orgasmed out!! Which was a possibility after all the years of trying different sexualities from hot/cold tantra to taoism to karezza all of which we'd embraced with a great deal of enthusiasm, but by that stage had seemed so yesterday - faded, jaded and quite frankly boring.

Thursday, 29 May 2014


I've had to repost this as the previous blog had become corrupt whilst I was trying to replace the picture I'd drawn with the triquetra vesica.

My meditations lately feel like I am moving into a different reality, a type of lucid dreaming. After reading Celia Fenn’s Time Travel blogs I recognise what I am doing and have been doing for a while. Sometimes I am able to be both here and there at the same time, not having the ability quite yet to move fully into a different reality. I suppose I am still at the stage where I have the comfort of knowing I am fully anchored in this reality as I worry I might lose my way.

Dearest Lover...

Being in relationship with my hubby always reflects the relationship of my inner masculine and feminine.

Oh my, how often do I NOT want to see it. In the end I admit that hell yes I can be a pigheaded stubborn dolt that I seethingly inside feel my hubby is.


Monday, 26 May 2014

Would we work?

I saw this on FB this morning and it stopped me in my tracks. It's a question I'd not thought of for years.

When I first started on this path in 1995 I was all fired up about the potentials of what 'could be'. Meeting up with like-minded people really inspired me and we'd discuss endlessly different aspects. My my, how exciting it was to have a whole new horizon open up before me.

Saturday, 24 May 2014

Roman Baths in Bath, Somerset

Entrance to the Roman Spa

Bath, Somerset

Bath, Somerset


What an amazing place Bath is! This Heritage site was built by the Romans 60 AD.

We spent a long weekend there during May last year.

I had no expectations whatsoever, as I'd never paid much attention to this place...but WOW...so well worth the visit. I have always been fascinated by the Romans, their architecture and art. The Roman Baths are very well preserved, the hot springs still bubbling up.

Friday, 16 May 2014

Blessed with the presence of Bumblebees

A week ago we noticed several smallish bees buzzing around a crack in the outside wall. On closer inspection we realised that they were actually getting into the crack and a short while later flying out.

The following day there seemed to be more. That was when we came to the conclusion that they were making a nest!

Tuesday, 13 May 2014

Sleep - parasomnias and other things

I attended the British Sleep Society's Spring meeting in Eastbourne a few days ago with my fellow Sleep Technicians.

We were referred to as ‘scientists’ and sat through a workshop on the logical steps needed to publish scientific research. Um...haha...not likely! But on reflection, I wondered...

Friday, 9 May 2014

Living daylights!


Once again I had a dream about buying a house. It wasn’t too different to the other one I’d had recently (to read it click here) and woke with the song Living Daylights by A-HA running around in my head.