Portal opening

Ramblings about life . . .

What I share about my life is simply to help reinforce the understanding that it is possible to live with love and laughter, in between the tough times.

Life is what we make of it, no matter how harrowing. We accept and embody this with-in ourselves, thereby allowing the energy to manifest outwardly in our reality.

It starts with each one of us as an individual to form the collective consciousness.

Be the dream.

We honour the light and the life within you.

Please be aware - I upload other bloggers' posts and then delete after a month. This is my journey and others help me understand where I am, until they become irrelevant (a few posts excepted).

Sunday, 29 July 2012

Orgasmic night

I had three orgasms last night during my sleep. Each time I woke…mainly because it surprised me. Three!!! And my hubby had nothing to do with it :-)

We’ve all had dreams where this has occurred…well, I have anyway. It is not a regular occurrence but it does happen.

Each time last night I was in a state of bliss and knew it had something to do with the elementals. So this morning I asked what was going on.

Over the last two nights I have been connected with my dragon, the elementals, nature spirits and angels through the heart with other humans who are doing this work as well. There are so many different approaches…but each one is working so well.

Friday, 27 July 2012


It was very interesting to read Eileen’s blog today Reflections in which she talks about the no-breath she experienced twice.

This has happened to me a few times this year. It flummoxed me slightly, as I felt I’d stopped breathing completely when I was in meditation but it didn’t seem to distress my body in any way. So I simply waved it away as a figment of my imagination and never really bothered to find out what was going on.

Thanks, Eileen for this explanation, although I don't fully understand what it means.

A deeply profound experience of learning and understanding


It has been an incredible few days of learning and experiencing…as well as a big shove in the right direction on Tuesday night that came in the form of an argument with a temporary work colleague who is locuming for us at the moment. And yet out of this came the most beautiful transformation I have ever experienced.

Even though we’d worked it out by the time the night shift was over, I still found myself not completely ‘over’ it all day Wednesday. This was of course not helped by the fact that I didn’t sleep much when I got home.

But yesterday was a different story. I see and understand more about that argument and can see how beautifully orchestrated it was. Every day since then I have come into insights and understandings and I am sure it will continue to be so.

Thursday, 26 July 2012

Bizarre moment

I had a very bizarre moment whilst washing my hair yesterday – as you do :-)

I moved into a second space, not sure how or why, but one instant I was in this reality and the next somewhere else as well.

It was whilst in this ‘somewhere else’ I understood the connection of everything in my reality to me.
I’ve experienced this before, but this time it seemed ‘more’ somehow.

It was a moment of AHA – it is all me, every ET, every UFO, every newspaper, shooting, tree, bird, everything that lives and dies. It was an expansion of me. I was the Universal Being and within me were all these experiences playing out.

Wednesday, 25 July 2012

Continuation of shark meditation

This is a continuation of the meditation when the shark appeared and I screamed and ran away- And then they said BOO...

Going back I found myself in the pool once again. The shark was floating in the water next to me. I know that sharks cannot stay still and need to constantly keep moving. But this one didn’t. He looked at me with one eye and waited patiently.

All the fear, the horror and the pain came rushing back, but I stayed with it and really felt it. My legs were tingling constantly…you know that toe cringing fear of expectation.

Strangely enough Eddie Grant’s song Don’t back down started playing. Good advice.

Tuesday, 24 July 2012

Orgasm driven sex

Let’s face it…we’ve been there and to a degree are still there…orgasm driven sex.

Gone are the days when our grandmothers opened their legs and ‘thought of England’…or chocolate, while the husband did his ‘job’. All in the line of duty.

Then came a stage where women were pressured into faking orgasms to make their husbands feel like they were studs.

Next - it was imperative to give a woman a fabulous orgasm…and then came the multiple orgasms.

Karezza Explored

To read the previous blog from Reuniting click on Karezza in four easy steps (for men) and my own blog Orgasm driven sex

Karezza in four easy steps (for men)

To read the follow-on blog from Reuniting click on Karessa Explored and my own blog Orgasm driven sex

And then they said BOO...

As I sat down to meditate in the shade, both cats came to sit with me. I realised that once again they wanted to be a part of the meditation, so when I closed my eyes, I took them with me.

I found myself, hubby and the cats in a long cool corridor that looked Egyptian. It had hieroglyphs on the walls and tall columns at various places down the corridor.

I watched the cats as I knew something was gonna happen with them. They both grew in size to that of a leopard. I could see the little cats inside the big cats. This was their higher selves.

Monday, 23 July 2012

So tired

Yesterday I experienced tiredness as never before.

Saturday was a fabulous day. We found what we were looking for in the lanes in Brighton. I actually had no idea what I wanted, so went with an open mind. I also asked for some help and took the fairies with us.

We kinda wandered around the lanes (I do so love the lanes in Brighton – it has an arty feel to it – very eclectic mix of various shops in a way that only the UK can have).

I’d had a look on the internet at handfasting rings with runes carved on them, as well as conventional stuff but simply got more confused, so I stopped.

Sunday, 22 July 2012

Maju Stones

Darrell Leakey on his Maju Stones

Hello everyone 

Some may wonder if I can make a maju without knowing the name of the individual and that they would show up for it. I asked myself that same question many years ago. 

I put my maju's in a store for the first time and I wondered if it would happen. 

Saturday, 21 July 2012


Well….aren’t we excited?

Firstly, according to the weather man we are finally going to have some sun. The Gulf Stream that normally moves up to Scotland has been sitting below England causing the wet weather…which is great because we have so much water now that we don’t have a hosepipe ban.

Yeah…can you believe it? This wet island has been in a drought…well in the south anyway. Hosepipe bans I associate with Africa not England…

Officially our sunny weather starts tomorrow. But looking out the window – it seems it might be today.

Which means Scotland will be the only place in the UK (besides Ireland – don’t know which is the wetter of the too!) still being bombarded by rain.

The various faces of love

Regularly I get spam…as I am sure most of you do.

I obviously never read them…and simply press the spam delete. But lately my attention has been drawn there. I didn’t have any idea why…until today. From the subject headings, I see that most of them are about the sex industry.

It sorta makes me sad to think that humanity is so desperate for love they need to either have bigger boobs, a larger penis or to use pornography to find it. Anything that stops them actually feeling who they are within. But it is the way things are/have been.

It also brings home how important it is for us to walk the walk and be part of the changes from the conditional 3D love to that of 5D pure unconditional love.

Look at the sales of erotica…and the Fifty Shades of Grey series. I’ve not read it, but from those I know who have, they've really enjoyed them.

Thursday, 19 July 2012

Handfasting and the beautiful Giant Sequoia

Me n the Giant Sequoia at Sheffield Park

Yesterday I felt the amazing and strong need to start monthly meditation circles with the elementals, etc. I'd received an email from someone I've not heard from for some years. It somehow pushed me and without thinking I decided to take out an ad, and upload the sessions onto my blog...and it is not something I'd ever thought of before.

Bam...out of the blue it grabbed me and ran away with me before I had a chance to 'think' about it.

Later in the day I did have a brief flash of intuition that this is a winding path leading me somewhere and this is a stepping stone on the journey.

Monday, 16 July 2012

Nature spirits, elementals and devas

Gorgeous snow leopard
I have discovered that I was a priestess who was an earthworker in Atlantis. It was around the end of times then when we dispersed to various parts of the world taking portions of the sacred knowledge with us.

I have spent many a day with this priestess, whose knowledge of the elementals, nature spirits and devas is very vast. Of course she had to have worked with them because of what she did.

I was rather puzzled because I do remember drowning, as Atlantis sank, whilst singing the blanket of protection over Atlantis, hence my love and fear of water.

Saturday, 14 July 2012

Dragon Mountain and the Pool of Truth

Dragon Mountain

I am breaking my silence for today as I had an amazing meditation this morning outside in the sun. It seems that the silence of my own company is pushing me beyond. 

I have disconnected from hubby for this week. It is time for us grow in our own ways…and what has come of this silence is really amazing for both of us. 

Once this is uploaded, I am moving once more into the silence of my heart. I cannot tell you how wonderful this silence is…it is truly profound and wondrous.

This morning, I found myself surrounded by nature spirits, divas, elementals, animal spirits and the dragons, Venrida and Ba’shiba.

Tuesday, 10 July 2012

More on the circuit breaker

Carrying on with the theme of the heart and circuit breakers…

As circuit breakers we have the chance to step down the energy to make it more palatable for the collective so their circuits aren't blown. We really have our work cut out for us.

Jem of Lighted Loving has been particularly present in my life these last few days. I woke one night to find him in his lion form gently nuzzling my outstretched hand. They have taken a distant but respectful position away from me since Athena and I started integrating. They mentioned last year that we are taking up our rightful positions as the Earthkeepers or Guardians of Earth.

As I have so much to understand and am working on so many levels and being in my limited human form, I don’t always know what is going on. I tend to focus on one specific thing, only to later find out that various parts of myself on differing dimensions and parallels, have been doing other things. It’s kinda like being an octopus with eight arms and only being aware at any one time of two of the arms.

Monday, 9 July 2012

Heart connection

I had a very significant dream last night (the details of which I won't bore you with), which reinforces my feelings about the happenings this year, here in the UK.

I figure it is time to put pen to paper about how I see what is happening this year. It is something I have discussed with my daughter many a time over the years.

Understandably, many won't agree. But there are many layers playing out here.

We all know that this year is special. It is of significance that this year quite a few things are occurring in the UK.

As we all know 2012 is the year of change – it is also the first year of the dawning of an age of love.

Firstly the Diamond Jubilee.

60 years - numerology 6 -

A morning at Sheffield Park

We went to Sheffield Park to walk around the gardens this morning. It was great...little bits of rain interspersed with sunshine...until a monsoon-like downpour had us stuck under a copse of trees.

It was there that we witnessed a really angry swan chasing some Canadian geese off his pond and away from his family of cygnets.

It lasted about an hour as he chased them all over the park from the top pond right down to the bottom pond and back again.

All eventually settled down with the geese in the bottom pond and the swans in the top.

Sunday, 8 July 2012

Mother Nature

View from the Tech Control room

It is overcast but still I sit in my garden...until it starts raining :-)

Last night is poured and poured and poured with rain. Hubby explained that the Gulf Stream that normally moves up this time of year to Scotland has remained down below England, hence all the rain.

The starling group of about 20 have spent an hour socialising and eating in and around our garden and the neighbours. Their favourite perch is the huge apple tree next door that hangs over our fence.

Wedding vows and Union

Sacred union - something I’ve written about not really fully understanding what it means. 

I still don’t…but had some insight yesterday that has given me another piece of the puzzle to add to the picture.

My nephew (my sister’s son) (let’s call him J) and his fiancĂ© (let’s call her M) got married yesterday. 

They wanted a low key quiet wedding in the registry office and hubby and I were the witnesses as well as the representatives of the families.

Saturday, 7 July 2012

Catalyst for change

I sat down this morning to meditate firstly about the circuit breaker thing and secondly to find out what had happened yesterday at the wedding. There was so much going on there that I had to shut it out so I could focus on the happenings of the day in the 3d world.

But what did I get instead?

The deep-seated knowledge that I am a strong catalyst for change…and not in a gentle pleasant way…it can sometimes be harsh.

I think this all ties in with the dream that I had where everyone blamed me for the changes they had had in their lives - Past and Present Guilts.

Thursday, 5 July 2012

We are circuit breakers

Hubby and I both climbed into bed early last night…him to read and me to merely snuggle up to him and rest. Hmm…nothing like a hairy chest and warm body to sooth my senses.

We were joined by our big black cat. He is such a gentle natured being…a gentle giant. He lay on top of hubby and me connecting us via our base/sacral.

We lay in this manner for a while. Slowly I became aware of the connection of energy between the three of us…and voila! an insight.

It was one of those moments when time stands still.

An irritated perineum

I have an 'irritated perineum'…in other words my base chakra is not happy...and assume it has something to do with my painful thighs.

I went to sleep this morning after my night shift okay…but didn’t sleep deeply as I was constantly aware of a noise in the background that finally broke through my sleep and woke me. It was the sound of a man talking in the distance. It was a constant buzz that really irritated me.

Tuesday, 3 July 2012

Living through the heart

I am in total awe of who we are becoming.

I have held this vision of creating heaven on earth since I can remember…but to actually see it happening before my eyes is a gift in itself.

I have spent the morning in the quiet stillness of my heart, simply being with this new energy download.
It a space of such beauty that I am filled with joy.

Whilst sitting in the space I felt something on my leg. It was a tiny spider. So I gently lifted him with his web and placed him on the mirror next to me. A while later I noticed him crawling through the air to once again land on my leg. I left him.

To this spider I am part of nature. This is something I have always wanted…to be part of nature in such a way that I don’t spook them. To be able to sit surrounded by birds, or squirrels, etc. and they display no worry or fear because we are in perfect harmony. We are one.

Legs of Jelly and a breakthrough

Oh my word.

Our new fitness regime of weight training had made my legs wibbly wobbly like jelly. The walk home was an exercise in giggling and patience as my legs didn’t seem to want to go where I intended.

I sang the song that we used to when the kids were little
Jelly on a plate
Jelly on a plate
Wibble wobble
Jelly on a plate

Uh huh…no ways… my legs objected as I attempted to climb the stairs. I had to crawl to my bedroom, where I passed out, face down, on the bed for an hour. I think I had no adrenalin left.

Monday, 2 July 2012

Embracing all our beauty

This has been an amazing week of synchronicities.

Last night I watched the Group’s message. In it they stressed owning our mastery as well as creating through the heart, working with our teams and a few other things that seem to have come to my attention during this week.

Drunvalo’s latest Q&A also discusses creating through the heart instead of the mind. He also spoke about using our Merkaba to protect ourselves from everything. Just like a crystal, the Merkaba (as it is a crystalline structure) can be programmed to do anything we want.

A few days…maybe a week ago…I asked to start living through the intelligence of the heart and everything that has happened lately has been pointing toward that becoming a reality.

Ah...fabulously freeing insights

Last night we went through to my nephew and his fiancĂ© for a BBQ. The conversation at one stage turned to a question about how our son was doing. That was the trigger point of a heated discussion between hubby and I. 

The situation became rather weird as I felt like I was fighting myself. I sorta pushed it to one side and left it at that as we turned to another topic of conversation.

Last night there were two responses from Dorothy and Luminance River to my blog that got me thinking deeply and I asked my guides to give me some insights as to what was going on…because I knew that there was something in what was happening recently and yet I couldn’t see it. My initial thought when I woke this was morning was to ask my guides if we’d done it. Their answer was an emphatic YES. Ooookay.

Sunday, 1 July 2012

Change of mind-set


This morning I was given a lesson in how I affect my world…a very strong lesson.

We have been experimenting lately with the idea that eating before sex is energy sapping. What we have found is that morning sex is far more fulfilling than evening sex. Mainly this is because we haven’t eaten all night. 

When we eat most of our energy and blood is focused on the task of digesting the food in our stomachs and therefore there is not much left for the act of lovemaking.But this is a vast subject and very complicated.

So night time for us is mostly for cuddling and bonding and the mornings are devoted to making love. Well that is the theory that mostly works…but sometimes it is swapped around…and this is when we find that the differences are incredible.