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Ramblings about life . . .

What I share about my life is simply to help reinforce the understanding that it is possible to live with love and laughter, in between the tough times.

Life is what we make of it, no matter how harrowing. We accept and embody this with-in ourselves, thereby allowing the energy to manifest outwardly in our reality.

It starts with each one of us as an individual to form the collective consciousness.

Be the dream.

We honour the light and the life within you.

Please be aware - I upload other bloggers' posts and then delete after a month. This is my journey and others help me understand where I am, until they become irrelevant (a few posts excepted).

Tuesday, 31 May 2011


It’s always difficult when karma raises its head. It might seem ugly at the time but it’s a very valuable tool as we ascend.

As we move along the path of ascension, that which no longer serves needs to come to the surface for clearing. The further along the path you are, the deeper the clearing.

Monday, 30 May 2011

Strange times we live in

Flipping between dimensions recently came to my attention when I read Ishtar’s blog about becoming younger and Crystal121’s blog about being invisible. I finally put the two together and came up with…well, 100ish :)

When the King Cobra implanted the opal in my forehead I was told that it would cloak me in invisibility so only those that needed to see me and my work would do so. And yes, so far I have been invisible. But it’s not this that has my attention.

I’ve found that time wise I’m totally lost. It’s difficult to explain.

Last week I knew I had a meeting and I knew what the date was and yet I couldn’t put the two together.  In other words the date was simply a date and had no relevance to the actual day I was living in. It was only when one of my work colleagues phoned to find out where I was that it suddenly hit home what day it was.

Again this happened when I took out all the paperwork to renew my car’s road tax and couldn’t find the reminder that the DVLA normally send. I just assumed I’d lost it, as I’d been doing quite a bit of clearing out of old paperwork in the past weeks.

Hubby and I were driving somewhere and he mentioned he needed to renew his licence next month. Something pinged in my mind and I stared at his licence in the car window when it dawned on me I’d bought my licence too early. I’d bought it end May instead of end June.

These are only two of the many instances where I seem to not be completely here or there. I thought I was simply not grounded very well but after reading Crystal 121’s blog today I’m wondering if it is because I’m flipping backwards and forwards between dimensions.

I received a really interesting answer to my blog about relationships and working in 5D from Kelton on TI. A portion of what I’d written was this-

‘Together we are creating a world in which we are love, with an ability to move from world to another.  I’ve always believed I will be able to live in the 5D world and come back to the 3D world to do my ‘work’.

Kelton replied -

‘Ecstasy is also a vital lesson and maybe more scary for folks in general than we would like to admit! So channeling in 5D energy is a tough job, but somebody's got to do it...’

Thank you, Kelton, you really got me thinking about what each one of us is creating as we move up. Am I already living in my 5D world, which is my home and sanctuary that I return to each day to replenish, rest and revitalise? My 3D life is my work at the sleep clinic.

How many of lightworkers, each with their unique individuality and passion, is already working in this way? How many of us are adding our own piece to the jigsaw that is the beautiful world we will be/are living in (stole that quote from Mati :))

I’m curious to find out who else has been having these odd occurrences in their lives, whether it is time, places, people or just outright weird stuff.

Strange times we live in - to read comments on LW

Sunday, 29 May 2011

Do our pets reflect our dis-eased energy?

I have wondered over the years whether our pets reflect our dis-eased energy.

Everything around us is a reflection, so why not our pets? I do believe that the energies of our house, car and garden also reflect our energetic state. Watch out for your appliances :)

As I’ve moved up in frequency my old laptop struggled to keep up. Each time I fired her up, it took ages for her to adjust her frequency to fit mine until eventually I decided it was time for a new one.

Saturday, 28 May 2011

Relationships again!

Over the years quite a few people asked me why I didn’t run workshops on relationships - relationships as between a couple. The idea appealed to me but I felt I wasn’t ready. Hubby and I still had a few unresolved matters between us.

When I first met hubby I felt an instant attraction to him, in spite the fact that he was engaged to someone else. I ignored the feeling and danced through life for a few more years, having an absolute ball. Quite frankly, I was what people would term ‘a slut’ :). I had fun and enjoyed every moment with no regrets and loved each man in my own way. I never stayed with anyone very long – I simply got what I needed and moved on.


Yesterday I watched five or six blue tits enjoying a bath in my neighbour’s pond. Today as I sat quietly in the garden feeling very peaceful, a blue tit landed on the tomato plant next to me. When I saw it I felt a ripple of energy run through me. I didn’t move as I watched it jump from place to place catching insects, totally oblivious of me. 

I looked up the meaning of this

‘Perseverance, quick reaction, problems, joy, positive news, attention to detail. It is important that you act quickly with any problems or difficult situations, this will avoid bigger problems. You will receive some surprising and positive news, important to pay attention to small details especially with anything legally binding. There will be several opportunities for enjoyment and fun, take full advantage of them. A time to be aware of all what is going on around you, and not to take risks or be complacent.’

Pay attention to the small details. We are in the process of buying a holiday chalet – could this be a warning?

Owls have also been quite significant lately. There is an owl that hoots most nights for a while. There are many large trees around us so it could be nesting anywhere. On Sunday we went to the local horse and dog country show and they had 5 owls on display, each one a different type. There were two there who had orange eyes. Strangest thing I’ve ever seen. Again, I felt the same energy ripple when I saw the owls.

‘An owl’s' perception pierces the veil of darkness. On a symbolic level, this means that they can see what is hidden to others with only ordinary sight. Athena, the Greek goddess of wisdom, had a companion Owl on her shoulder which revealed unseen truths to her. Owl had the ability to light up Athena's blind side, enabling her to speak the whole truth, as opposed to only a half truth.’

Hmm… am I missing something? One is telling me to be aware of what is going on around me and the other is advising me I’m blind.

The song by Jem called Just A Ride http://youtu.be/23ago3NmsVQ  keeps playing in my head, all night and all day. I don’t mind as I like it – is there some significance that this song keeps replaying itself?

‘The truth we don’t wanna hear

It’s too much to take

We don’t like to feel out of control’

Hmm…what truth am I hiding from myself?

Whilst watching Inelia Benz’s http://youtu.be/feZqzZUV19w  interview a few days ago, she looked straight into my eyes as she said something. I can’t remember what it was, as I sat stunned by the interaction. All I can recall is the shiver of energy.

Again, today I was sitting listening to something when I heard the words ‘the devil is in the detail’. What detail? Things are jumping out at me screaming for my attention so much so that I felt drawn to blogging again and did my first one today on Speaking Out. I suspect this ‘speaking out’ is all part of what I’m being given, but I’m blowed if I bloody know what!

Taking a deep breath I let go and surrender to the flow of information…and fall asleep!

Blue tits - to read comments on LW

Friday, 27 May 2011

Speaking out

Yeah, I know…I’m supposed to be on a self-imposed sabbatical…

Reading Mati’s wordpress blog about being a domino http://matarikidimension.wordpress.com/2011/05/25/touching-the-first-domino/ and QuietWord’s piece on sarcasm I feel like I’m being given some information that I need to work with. I know I hold back when it comes to saying what I want to say, ‘cos I know it will hurt someone. I don’t do it intentionally – it’s simply speaking out about the way I see it. Many people walk around with their heads buried in the sand blinded by the need not to see.

Wednesday, 25 May 2011

Monday, 23 May 2011

Walking the walk

Do you ever wonder if it is possible to teach something and not 'walk the walk'?

I ask this because I see, day in and day out, medical Consultants advising patients on their lifestyle, imploring them to cut down on the cigarettes, alcohol, get some sleep, eat better, etc. and yet very few of them follow their own advice.

Sunday, 22 May 2011

Raw food for cats

Here I am cutting up raw food for the cats whilst listening to music blaring in the background, singing at the top of my voice. This must be the six zillionth time in the last 7 years that I have done this. It’s a labour of love that I do every two weeks.

Our two kitties arrived at our house at the very tender age of 4 weeks. Their mother had rejected them and the owner of the mother cat was hand feeding six kittens and finding it exhausting. I agreed to take them and mother them. They were both so very scrawny with hardly any fur on their little bodies. I started them off on minced raw food and as they got older and stronger made the chunks larger and larger.

Burning soles

Lately I’ve had a strange sensation of burning on the soles and the back of my heels, as though they are tired of being stuck in one place. I constantly feel like I need to get up and walk around to relieve it but as soon as I stand in one place or sit the sensation returns. I’m wondering if this is what it feels like before developing bed sores from lying in one place.

It almost feels as though I’m not active enough, although how much more active I can be, I’m not sure. My body is telling me that I’m procrastinating in my need to move forward. I’ve been putting off something I should have started this month but ignored it.

Saturday, 21 May 2011


Yesterday I kept on hearing this song playing over and over in my head. Every time I woke in the night it was still playing in my head…and again this morning when I woke. It makes me feel quite emotional if I simply sit and listen to it.

Friday, 20 May 2011

Dangly bits

It was a very long emotional day at work yesterday. I ran a clinic in the morning and in the afternoon was titrating patients on CPAP. I'd done a few nights this week and to top it all my cat had delivered a live mouse to us at 2am the previous night and we'd spent ages trying to find it as it shot off the bed and disappeared. Hubby eventually found it and took it outside, so I was really tired in the morning.

One of the patients that came in to the clinic had muscular dystrophy and he arrived, in his electric wheelchair with his wife who is his carer. She had to turn him every 30 minutes at night and as a result both of them were suffering with sleep deprivation and were extremely tearful. This can be very difficult for a medical professional, especially when the couple feel that we are going to solve all their problems.

Saying goodbye

I'm sitting here in my garden enjoying the sunshine with a large flowering hydrangea bush at my back, its branches around me as though giving me a hug.

It's been a strange week for me. Hubby started the clearing out a few weeks ago by doing a mad springclean of the kitchen and bathrooms. Then last week I felt the need to clear out all the paperwork and it brought up such a lot of memories that were released.

And now this week...I have let go of my dear old laptop and my wonderful little VW Golf, both of whom have faithfully served me for years. I came to the conclusion end of last week that it was time to do so.

Thursday, 19 May 2011

Emotional Alchemy

It never ceases to amaze me how I'm always placed in certain situations for a very good reason. I have come to understand that my higher self and my guardians are doing a fantastic job of teaching me.

Our roster at work has changed this month. As the years have gone by I have changed the nights that I work and therefore the colleagues that I work with. I've worked regularly with all of them bar one, and she is the one I am currently assigned to work with permanently. I wasn't supposed to but through a series of bizarre incidents it turned out this way. I must admit that I've not had a lot of interaction with her except to see her at meetings. I was sharp with her on one occasion for a few repeated oversights - yeah, I'm not always Pollyanna running through meadow flowers :)

Wednesday, 18 May 2011

'Other sight'

I’ve received a slight kick up the arse today.

I’ve been meaning to write a blog about ‘other sight’ for at least a week, but haven’t had the energy and then when I did have the energy, I couldn’t be bothered. Well...

Today I read two blogs wondering what is happening to their sight.

Monday, 16 May 2011

A meditation of love

You know what? It takes courage to take a different path than the one we usually take each day. We become creatures of habit and do everything on automatic without truly thinking and feeling what we are doing. So we exist. When last did we stop and actually feel – feel the happiness, joy or the pain?

Taking note and making a decision every minute of the day takes a lot of focus and energy. It’s easier for us to just let things happen. When we take a conscious decision to change how we feel about something, it changes the energy surrounding us.

A fit of the giggles

We drove down to Rye on the south coast yesterday. After we’d attended to all the family things we needed to do, hubby and I stopped off at a local fish restaurant for lunch.

Hubby was on top form, entertaining me with his evilly wicked sense of humour until finally at the end of the main meal I had a fit of the giggles. I was laughing so hard I was crying and then started snorting into my glass of wine. The bemused waitress came over to ask if we wanted dessert. I couldn’t answer.

Sunday, 15 May 2011

What To Do If Your Cock's Too Small

David Cates has a website called Deep Masculine which gives me fascinating insights. I do enjoy his blogs and felt moved to post this one on my blog


Forget the staged shrieks of porn actresses being mercilessly battered by beer-bottle cocks.

Wednesday, 11 May 2011

Cycling Energy Part 1 transcript

We call upon the angels, the archangels, the ascended masters, our guides, gatekeepers and higher self. We ask that they assist us in keeping us in a safe space and that whatever happens will be for our own highest divine good. 

We call upon Archangel Michael and ask that he assists us as we throw our blue cloak of protection over us.

We call upon the Angels of Balance and ask that they assist us to remain balanced and centred.

Monday, 9 May 2011

Violets everywhere

Last night I dreamt constantly about purple Violets in all forms. Flowers as well as essential oil and flower essence, as well as using it for baking and cleaning. It was a very busy dream and all the while I kept seeing purple Violets.

I went through my flower essence book and realised that I’d forgotten that being an Aquarian my flower essence is that of Water Violet. I looked up ‘normal’ Violets and found it is similar to the Water Violet.

Sunday, 8 May 2011

I love someone with autism - (living with autism from a mom's point of view)

This is my story...(Dark Fyre wrote this blog)
When my son was diagnosed with ADHD and also Aspergers...I went into a downward spiral of many mixed emotions. At first I was in denial...how could my child have this? No way...they are so wrong... I was a little furious that they even mentioned he seems to have a problem, (the usual parents go through).

Thursday, 5 May 2011

The fascinating truth about our hair

I came across this fascinating article on another website. Last year I'd decided to grow my hair long and it is now more than halfway down my back. On reflection my intuition and creativity has shot through the roof lately. Could this be the reason?

Tuesday, 3 May 2011


I have a very dear South African friend who now lives in Australia, after leaving the UK 6 years ago. She came over here the same time we did. I shall call her ‘Sweetie’.

Sweetie is a speech and language therapist who started to have an interest in autism whilst working here in the UK. She and I have much in common when it comes to alternative things. We used to have many an animated discussion (and still do). Our hubbies used roll eyes when we got together, cause they knew they were in for a long night. When she moved to Australia she took time out to have two children and now is working part time privately and studying further about autism.

Monday, 2 May 2011


Empaths is a word that is being bandied about quite a lot lately.

I’m one but I didn’t know it for many years. As a child I suffered horribly with migraines and panic attacks. As I got older I added other problems – gastro enteritis and horrible period pains – a regular occurrence and in my late 20s I became bedridden with a destroyed back.
Looking back now I realise that this was all part of being an empath. I was so overloaded with my emotions and the emotions of the world that it was weighing heavily upon my body and causing problems.

King Cobra

Monday 1 May 2011
Sheesh, these experiences are arriving at a fast rate – I feel like I can’t keep up as there is so much inside and outside going on. For the last few days I’ve been getting the words "You have until 1 May" and they were upping the ante. I never bother to ask why cause I never get an answer, as I tend to get in my own way when I know the answer and try and pre-empt what will happen. This is what they call going with the flow. Although I did ask if hubby was ready – cause I worry about him on this rollercoaster cause as I move up so does he.

Sunday, 1 May 2011

Nature is helping us

I’ve been meaning to write this up for a while but haven’t had a chance.

Last week when we went for our ramble through the countryside, we noticed masses of little white ‘fairies’ (as my son used to call them) floating around. These were smaller than the Dandelion fairies. We’d noticed it over the previous week but assumed it was Dandelion being released in masses only to discover that it was something completely different.