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Ramblings about life . . .

What I share about my life is simply to help reinforce the understanding that it is possible to live with love and laughter, in between the tough times.

Life is what we make of it, no matter how harrowing. We accept and embody this with-in ourselves, thereby allowing the energy to manifest outwardly in our reality.

It starts with each one of us as an individual to form the collective consciousness.

Be the dream.

We honour the light and the life within you.

Please be aware - I upload other bloggers' posts and then delete after a month. This is my journey and others help me understand where I am, until they become irrelevant (a few posts excepted).

Sunday, 30 September 2012

Wednesday 19 September 2012

My nutter of a hubby :-)
Excerpt from my diary - 19 Sept 2012

Once again dreams last night that I cannot remember. We slept a long 10 hour sleep waking very late.

We meditated…but this time it was merely meditating as friends rather than a couple. We’d decided to go to the beach but as I was getting ready I kinda felt like I didn’t really want to go…but we went anyway. I’d planned, whilst having breakfast, on making another essence today, which I remembered as we walked out the door…but shrugged and thought it could wait.

We got to the beach but it was slightly overcast and cool. We sat for about an hour and then left to come back to the maison where the sun was shining brightly.

Friday, 28 September 2012

Spiritual whiplash

I returned to work on Tuesday night and found a notice on the wall saying Wellbeing Day or something like that. It was a day for hospital workers to go and find out about nutrition, yoga, Zumba, physiotherapy and…alternative therapies of Reiki, Emotrance and hypnotherapy.

Yesterday as I was running the CPAP clinic during the day, the HR ladies came down to ask if any of us were going to take up the 20 minute slots to try out what was being offered as they thought it was imperative that we take time out of our busy schedules to ‘look after ourselves’. She emphasised that other Trusts have been doing this for a while and our Trust wanted to do the same and make sure that they were looking after the wellbeing of their staff.

Years ago I’d approached HR and asked if I could set up meditation and healing clinics for the hospital workers and was told NO. So I figured it wasn’t time or for me and all I had to do was shine my light so that change would happen. Actually now that I think about it…the lady in charge of HR has recently retired…

Tuesday 18 September 2012

Lunch - the Canal is on the other side of parked cars

Excerpt from my diary - 18 Sept 2012

I had three very profound dreams last night. I woke after each, thought about them in the hope that in the morning I’d remember.

I wish I could remember these dreams because I know they were about relationships…but sadly my brain is not releasing any information. I suppose it will come back to me in time.

I have been mulling over how the divine masculine and feminine will/should work. As none of us have any idea – or rather we do but it is deep within the recesses of our memories – it is pretty much a mystery and there is a great deal of speculation.

Thursday, 27 September 2012

Monday 17 September 2012

Small harbour on the Etang de Thau

Excerpt from my diary - 17 Sept 2012

Saturday morning when we tried to meditate, some music started playing. It was coming from the community centre in the valley below. Normally it doesn’t bother me, but this time it felt uncomfortable.

We decided to go to the beach.

Sunday was paintballing day in the valley below. Last year it did not bother us but this time it did. We went out to the chateau and whilst we were there I developed a slight headache. I felt like there was something I should be ‘seeing’ but I didn’t want to, so I blocked it...and yeah I knew why we were there...but again...didn't want to know.

Sunday 16 September 2012

Excerpt from my diary - 16 Sept 2012

I have been cold since we arrived in France, despite the hot weather. I thought it was something to do with fear, because fear makes us cold.

But today I found out why. All my energy is concentrated in a long column of energy that runs from soul star chakra to earth star chakra through the middle of my body, and therefore my extremities like arms/hands and legs/feet have less energy.

We are transmuting together and are far more powerful because of it.

We were guided to go and visit the Chauteau. We have been visiting Castries for years and every time we have either arrived too late and missed the ‘open’ day to visit the gardens or it will happen once we leave.

Wednesday, 26 September 2012

Astrology reading by Rod Suskin - 30 April 1998

When I upload any of these things that I have done - such as the codes downloads, the readings, etc. it is not because I am blowing my trumpet...I merely want everyone to understand that there is a deeper meaning to everything in our life. We are not simply plodding along and existing. These readings give us valuable insights into who we are and we can use them to help us move forward in our quest for mastership. Of course the trick is not to become too slavish about it.

Tuesday, 25 September 2012

The engagement - 14 September 2012

Excerpt from my diary - 14 Sept 2012

We were engaged at 11:11 today (14 September 2012).

It might seem like a really wonderful thing to happen, but it wasn’t without it’s stresses and strains.

We’d left the UK at 4.45pm in the afternoon on Thursday. The ferry was almost empty. We have never experienced this before. No queues inside or out.

We had an amazing meal and then sat and chatted before going to Duty Free to buy some Maltezers to keep us going through the night.

All seemed okay.

Monday, 24 September 2012

My Comprehensive Numerical Blueprint Reading with Amy Landerman

This is a very long transcript of the 1 and a half hours of reading with Amy Landerman.

I found that having this reading now at my age is very helpful, especially being where I am in life and I can understand what she is talking about...more so than I would have at, for example, the age 30.

So here is the reading - I have highlighted the numbers and the layers. Many of us will have similar numbers in our energy field and body. No one person is "better" another - each one of us is on our own unique journey. I have uploaded my reading simply to give you an understanding of numerology and how it can help you on your journey.

Sunday, 9 September 2012

On holiday

I am on holiday now and will be leaving for France during the week where we will have our hand-fasting. The High Priest and High Priestess who will 'officiate' this hand-fasting will be Athena and Aeolus.

Whilst we are there, I have also been asked to do some healing to the Mediterranean. This kinda surprised me as it is not something I've ever considered doing...but it seems it is needed. Although now that I think about it...maybe transmute is a better word rather than healing. I will transmute any negative energy and replace it with love.

My reading with Amy Landerman on Friday was fascinating. She confirmed a great deal that I had 'known' - that I am here to transmute, hold the balance and anchor certain energies - that is my main goal as a master soul.

Wow...did she fill in the blanks for me that were quite mind boggling - well, to me they were! I won't bore you with the details but if you feel you would like to....you can read the transcript.

The energy of disappointment

From a friend on FB -
My two cents worth: When someone disappoints us - we get angry, resentful or hate them for what 'they have done to us...'

I just listened to a talk by Matt Kahn... about the energies of September. 
One of the things he touched upon was the energy of disappointment and how whenever we feel disappointment, it's the Universe handing us back our power. I thought it was really good, so here is some of it: 
The Theme of Disappointment... is a means of freeing you from your limiting beliefs, ideas, projections and assumptions. Shatter illusions of definitions... live as if this moment is your last again and again and again. Disappointment is life's way of handing you back your power when you unknowingly gave your power away to someone in your life. We give away our power simply by defining people with a certain role...as "here's who they are in my life." And if they do anything outside of that "role," we're immediately disappointed as if they are acting out of character.

Tuesday, 4 September 2012

New phase?

Hubby asked me the other day why I seem to be sharing other people's stuff on my blog. He thought the blog was meant to be about my experiences.

Haha...yeah, well it was.

I hadn't really noticed this change until he pointed it out. Seems I'm heading for a new phase in my life.

The ending of one section and the start of a new? I don't know. What I do know is that the need to share is not as strong as it used to be, so for the time being I will continue to upload other's work and maybe do a bit of my own in between.

Whatever is incubating with-in me is not yet ready to show itself to the world.


I've been busy sitting in my garden with my laptop, writing an email to a friend telling her that today I feel a tad confused...as though things have changed so much that I have landed up on a different boat and wasn't aware that I'd done so...until I looked around me.

When I'd sent it I looked up into the sky...and found about 40 seagulls above me flying in circles. Even though I live far from the coast, it is normal to see or hear the odd gull...but this many...and circling above me?

Monday, 3 September 2012

A beautiful day filled with love

What a loving and beautiful experience yesterday was!

When hubby managed to get the tickets, he had no idea what events we’d be watching…but of course the Universe and our HSs would make sure that it was absolutely perfect…and the significance of what I was seeing was not lost on me :-)

Relationships are my main focus mostly due to my own relationship…and the other very important relationship...that which we have with ourselves. We are in a relationship with the world around us, which is reflected in our relationship with-in ourselves.

Sunday, 2 September 2012


I have not been watching the Paralympic much until last night, when I sat down to watch a little bit of cycling, swimming and running.

Wow, these athletes are amazing.

I am off to the Paralympics today to watch athletics in the main stadium and therefore I've turned my attention to this...and as I did with the Olympics, am sending love into the main stadium from 7pm until 7am every day to change the energy.

Watching the athletes last night I felt the total joy and happiness these delightful BEings feel when they take part. The Olympics is meant to celebrate prowess and these athletes have overcome to much to be where they are. How can we deny them their little bit of time in the Sun?

Massive changes waiting patiently

I am aware of massive change in our life waiting on the periphery.

Every time I try and focus on it, it disappears. Kinda like when you see movement out of the corner of your eye and when you look, there is nothing there.

So I suppose I must be patient and allow it to unfold as it should. Good thing I don’t know what it is, cos I have a habit of fogging things up a little by pre-empting.

Saturday, 1 September 2012

Number Sequences from the Angels

As my attention has been drawn with great frequency lately to numbers, I found Doreen Virtue's quite comprehensive number sequences. I have played around with an amateur version of numerology for years...

Because of these persistent numbers, I wondered if I needed to have a proper in-depth numerology reading done...and voila! Amy Landerman appeared through various synchronicities...so I have booked a Comprehensive Numerical Blueprint reading with her on Friday, 7th September.