Portal opening

Ramblings about life . . .

What I share about my life is simply to help reinforce the understanding that it is possible to live with love and laughter, in between the tough times.

Life is what we make of it, no matter how harrowing. We accept and embody this with-in ourselves, thereby allowing the energy to manifest outwardly in our reality.

It starts with each one of us as an individual to form the collective consciousness.

Be the dream.

We honour the light and the life within you.

Please be aware - I upload other bloggers' posts and then delete after a month. This is my journey and others help me understand where I am, until they become irrelevant (a few posts excepted).

Monday, 30 April 2012

Full to the brim

I’m going to mow the lawn today as the sun is finally shining. We’ve had so much rain lately I feel like a water rat.

I’ve been asked several times…how do you know when you are in 5D? Truth is I don’t really know. It feels different to 3D. Lighter brighter and peaceful.

The only way I can describe it is this…when you’re in the midst of chaos in your life, things are not going great or you feel some kind of negative emotion…deep down inside yourself there is this peaceful state that seems to exist.

Why the snail?

Why did I say ‘snail’ in this morning’s blog? I could have said tortoise, but I didn’t. It took a while for this to sink in. Why snail? That sorta bugged me and figured that there had to be some meaning I gotta know about, so I went to look up the symbolism of the snail and found this:

"Appearing mostly at night, snails are a lunar symbol, therefore a symbol of feminine energy and the cycle of death/rebirth, ending/beginning, continuity, and fertility. Because of its shell, it is linked to the symbolism of the spiral and to self-sufficiency...... represents slow and steady progress made in the journey 'home' (towards enlightenment).”

Sunday, 29 April 2012

My darling hubby has tapped into his feminine side

My darling hubby has tapped into his feminine side. I should have thought about my request to download more of the feminine energy…whatever I go through…he goes through :-)

He came home on Thursday excited about a new store that had opened and waxing lyrical about all the stuff he’d seen. Said I’d love it…and then announced that it was time we re-did the lounge. Eh?

Anyways…off we went to Tunbridge Wells yesterday to see this fab shop. Ah heck…certainly got my juices going. We walked around sighing…what a dangerous shop! He was like a kid in a candy shop, excitedly pointing out all the different things he thought I’d like.

We chose quite a few things and he said, ‘We deserve this…we’ve worked hard to get where we are.’ 


Ubuntu (I am because we are) is practised throughout most of Africa, even in the cities. We see it regularly...if someone has a mishap of some kind...for example their house burns down...then everyone will contribute little bits of furniture to help them out. This despite most having very little.

It's not all good as can be seen from the governments in Africa, where corruption is rife (as it is everywhere in the world)...but we are talking here about the average person.

This is what we are working towards - no competition

I really loved this vision...sharing...no competition.

"An anthropologist proposed a game to African tribe kids. He put a basket full of fruit near a tree and told them that whoever got there first won the sweet fruits. 

The energy of 'can do'

The energy of ‘can do’ makes a huge difference in our lives. It’s been an interesting foray into this…something I’ve never really taken notice of.

Basically what I have understood is that if we show a willingness to try and try again, we are rewarded by the movement of energy. As it flows…it doesn’t matter whether you get it wrong or don’t complete what you set out to do…you can change the direction if you want.

Friday, 27 April 2012

Bringing in some strong energy

I’ve been in a quietly contemplative mood these last few days.

I almost feel as though I have slowed down and can feel each heart beat. I know it is merely a feeling as working yesterday I still managed to do everything I normally do…and then some.  I am functioning and interacting as I should but…

It is this feeling once again of being fully embodied in two places as once. Not quite a split but more an awareness.

Thursday, 26 April 2012

Hehe...squeeze those buttocks!

Last night I was in the bathroom getting ready for work when I realised that the theatre behind us had their windows open. I could hear the Zumba class...every Tuesday night I walk past there and see a huge hall of women dancing to the very uplifting and amazing music. I really want to join a class but the only one in this town is on a Tuesday night when I am working.

I feel an intention coming on...I also want to learn salsa but guess what that class is on a Tuesday night too. Hmm...me thinks I need to change my shift rota.

Tuesday, 24 April 2012

It's all coming together

Everything seems to be coming together at a rapid rate…or rather it feels rapid but maybe it isn’t.

People and experiences keep coming my way that I realise are necessary for my growth.

How did this happen…did I open a door somewhere that I can’t recall? I meditated on this and have a vague memory within myself of creating the intention that what I needed to move me forward would appear in my life in 2012. Is this is a life between lives intention? I think so, cos I don’t recall making it in this life.


Yesterday hubby told me that he had a suspicion that there is something dead in the roof. It's in a section that he cannot get to.

I didn't pay much attention to it...cos hubby has a thang about anything that enters our home that isn't welcome...flies being one of them. Every year when spring/summer comes he stomps around the house armed with his fly swat and spray.

I shrug...live and let live...they don't worry me too much.

Monday, 23 April 2012

We are what we believe

Athena has asked me to write this…so I think that this is meant for me as much as anyone else :-)

We are what we believe. What we believe is our truth…and therefore with these beliefs have created our world.

There is no getting away from it.

If you believe the world is harsh…then harsh it is.

If you believe that relationships don’t work…then they don’t work.

If you believe in conspiracies…then everywhere will be conspiracies.

How much of our energy do we give away with these beliefs that we claim are true?

Sunday, 22 April 2012

Opening of portals on the body

I woke abruptly in the early hours of this morning to find myself floating and hundreds upon hundreds of little portals were spinning upon my body. They looked like little spirals and they ranged from large to very small, sort of misty like steam or fog. I somehow knew that these were the butterflies that had changed. 

I heard the words, ‘the portals are open’.

Saturday, 21 April 2012

Kundalini yoga

Lotus seed pod

Kundalini yoga

Hmm…very interesting. I found myself giggling the whole way through it, as I released. It certainly helped because this morning I have no side effects, except maybe a slight sore sacral bone.

We worked on the navel and heart yesterday.

Now let me tell you…I am not one who has been into excessive physical activity. Even though I danced, played sport and horse rode as a teenager; I didn’t really work up too much of a sweat. I tried aerobics and the gym on the odd occasion but hated the idea of getting sweaty and simply couldn’t be bothered.

I have a weak body.


I’ve been slightly stressed lately. Mainly because I have done a night shift and then couldn’t sleep the following day. Maybe dozed for an hour. In between I’ve been wondering when, what and where.

You know…the usual doubts worries and fears that assail every one of us.

This community thing has had me stressing the most. I really want this. Having a taste of it in Australia has brought this longing to the fore.

Friday, 20 April 2012

YouTube - Henri 2, Paw de Deux

A friend posted this on Facebook...It's hilarious...sorry kitties...I couldn't stop laughing.

Thursday, 19 April 2012

Longing to be Home

Yesterday afternoon…a deep seated longing to be back Home suddenly hit me like a bolt of lightning out of the blue.

I was so tired of having to decide what to eat or drink, putting clothes on or taking them off, paying bills, going to work, having to shower or bath, what is my next move going to be, or worry about what soap is good for my skin, etc.

Tuesday, 17 April 2012

In training

We have one of the lost boys living with us again. He is a very polite and sweet young man, who doesn’t get on with his stepdad at all. So he is here again… I wrote about this last year Home for lost boys.

Anyways, I figure that whatever energy hubby and I are now holding is something he needs to be part of.

Monday, 16 April 2012

What now?

Cobbler's pose

I’m sitting here in my garden in the sunshine. I love this time of year when the garden is slowly starting to wake up after a long winter sleep.

This is the time when I find out which plants are back and what new ones have arrived to energetically help and support us.

As you might or might not know…I am a flower and gem essences practitioner by trade. Haha…yeah, I know – I seem to be lots of things but don’t really practice any of them :-) - except on myself and my family, all very useful for treating any illnesses in the family.

So as a result plants (and crystals) fascinate me.

My hydrangeas are back with a flourish - very good for helping with mental clarity and focus.

Carnal pleasures and the ascension process - sex and enlightenment

I read with interest Inelia Benz's latest blog called Having Sex in the 5th Dimension and came across a link to this blog

Carnal pleasures and the ascension process - sex and enlightenment

When we think of carnal pleasures, or pleasures of the flesh, the first thing we think about is sex. Of course there are other pleasures of the flesh, such as eating, drinking, enjoying nature, music, art, conversation... all the pleasures we gain from our physical senses, our body and our mind.

Sunday, 15 April 2012

Cutting the ties with a difference

It seems that hubby is driving this vehicle at the moment…much to my surprise. 

Okay…let me explain.

Whilst in Australia he did not sleep well. He couldn’t explain why. Whereas I slept really well…never had a problem anywhere, which is unusual because normally he sleeps well and I am restless. Mainly this happens because I am working through my body with the energy of wherever we are.

Not this time.

Saturday, 14 April 2012

Are we cutting the ties?

Oh my word! Jetlag…aargh…I was so tired yesterday I had an afternoon sleep and was still tired. Last night I crawled into bed at 8pm and slept for 12 hours solid.

My body objected to lying in one position for most of the night! But man, did it do me the world of good!?

Friday, 13 April 2012

My tears of grief and melancholy

My inner clock is out of wack. We keep hitting a wall of tiredness at about 8pm and waking at 4am. I sincerely hope that this is sorted by the time I do my first night next week Tuesday, otherwise I am in trouble.

I woke this morning to find that I am feeling rather empty and melancholic…kinda like you feel after a great deal of activity and then an emptiness where there had been so much. After a shower I was downstairs loading the washing machine with the mountains of washing to do…some I might add is from our son and his friends. They used everything but never washed it. Our son informed hubby that he ran out of socks and used hubby’s!! Some eye rolling…teenagers!!   :-)

Thursday, 12 April 2012

It's new

I am experiencing that same feeling we had last year after a month in France- a total disconnection with my current world. For months after that visit I was drifting.

Yes, we all experience something similar when we get back from holiday. The pleasure of no routine or having to do something…but these two occasions have been somewhat different.

Seoul once again!

Haha...I found it...I'd saved it under some obscure name...don't ask me why.

Tuesday, 09.04.2012

Little did I know that things would hot up a little once we reached Seoul, South Korea.

The night before we left Sydney, I’d stayed up chatting with my friend until the early hours of the morning…so much to be crammed in before we left.

Wednesday, 11 April 2012

Back home

We are back...to a house cleaned by teenagers. Erm...yes, well...as you can imagine...

Anyways, I wrote a long blog about experiences I had in Seoul but it seems to have disappeared. Probably irrelevant to all except me.

I had a walk around the garden - everything is blooming and discovered to my delight that my Magnolia is floweirng. What a pleasure to see.

I am glad to be home.

Sunday, 8 April 2012

Giving birth

A wonderful surprise awaited me last night when I walked into the huge open plan kitchen. Everyone had gone down to the shops to buy stuff for dinner, whilst I stayed here to upload and write my blogs.

They’d bought two dozen oysters (yum, my favourite), a bottle of champagne and prawns to make laksa (which is curried prawns with stir fry vegetables and rice). Afterward was Belgian waffles and our daughter’s partner was going to make a chocolate sauce to go over it. A celebration of love.

Saturday, 7 April 2012

Third ceremony

Today is Saturday.

I’ve been wondering when the third ceremony would be held. I was told that it would be Thursday, Friday and Saturday and I mistakenly thought it was three days in a row…but it seems not.

We are in the car driving back to Sydney. Yesterday we went to the Jenolan caves, which is a sacred site for the Aboriginals…it was great and I loved it. Sorta reminded me of the Cave of Fairies in France that we went to last year.

Wednesday, 4 April 2012

A little update

Hmm...what a week that was.

I've tried to upload some of the blogs that I kept over the week (we had no internet connection - probably a good thing so I could concentrate on what I needed to). I don't seem to be able to as my netbook keeps freezing, so I figure most of it is too private. All I will say is that it has been a week of intense initiation, both from an esoteric and energetic point of view and the forging of a new relationship with our future son-in-law.

Sunday, 1 April 2012

The Beauty of Mother Earth

I have finally reached a state of calm balance. It has taken me almost two weeks to reach this state in Australia.

As I am sitting here in the sun, I feel very privileged and very very grateful for everything in my life. I hear the birds calling and their busy-ness as they fly from tree to tree or in groups through the air, making their individual calls. Bird life here in Australia is very busy and constant. The magnificent colours of the birds has me stopping in wonder to examine them for a split second before they fly off to continue on their busy way.