Looking back: 2007 to 2016

It's been a time of reminiscing, going back over the last 9 years to see how far we've come.

We arrived in the UK in 1998 with nothing but four suitcases of clothes and toys having left everything behind (including debt) to start afresh. We also had very little money, but as money was freely abundant in the forms of loans without security and we went crazy...as you do coming from a closed society that had been in isolation due to sanctions.

The answers lay with-in

Over the last two months I've applied for several things, but have heard nothing after the initial answer. I'll go back over my emails to find the acknowledgement but they are nowhere to be found. I call to find out and there is no record at all of me ever applying!?

What?

Alchemical change

11/11 today!

Strange to think that we are in the future compared to most of the world.

I've found out why we needed the creative sacral energy to build in strength.

Pushing over the fake wall

My hubby lectured me yesterday about my attitude to emigrating. Said it was "weird" not to want to go, as it encompassed all the dreams we'd ever had. Everything we want rolled into one.

Laughter...always the best medicine

We've been laughing a lot lately.

While lying together Sunday night, just generally talking, Greg said something while I was talking. I thought I heard "pushion".

Christmas Full Moon

So this is why I needed to remain in the UK instead of jetting off to be in Oz as we'd planned.

Manifesting Heart's desire

This "old" post I wrote in 2012 popped up in my Inbox. Of course I had to read it. 

My, how far we have come since then.

An unexpected exchange of love

River running through the sanctuary

We walked around the Sevenoaks Wildlife Sanctuary on Sunday, and stumbled across a young rabbit that did not seem concerned that we were there.

It carried on munching on some leaves before turning around to face and cautiously hop toward me.

Under the microscope - Part 2

Following on from Part 1

I am going to shorten this as there is too much I could write.


My attention was then brought to clothes shopping. I'm not a clothes shopper. My passion has always been books, although that has dropped to a trickle these days as I am more particular about what I purchase. As for clothes, I'd wear them until they were threadbare. As I simply couldn't be bothered to spend hours trying on things, I'd grab something after a few minutes of browsing, try it on and become despondent because it didn't look anything like I'd expected. Mostly I'd walk out and not buy anything. So yeah, clothes shopping and I are not great mates.

Kundalini and the Mother energy

Towards the end of last week I dreamt about my mother. I cannot remember the dream in detail but I recall the feelings of being so loved in every way. When I awoke the song ‘we’ll meet again’ was playing in my head. I didn’t think too much about it, wondering if I’d get to see my mom again as I’ve not seen her for about 4 years now, as they don’t travel much these days.

Huh…it was actually an introduction to a different Mother energy as I discovered on Saturday…

Kundalini energy – not something I’ve delved into in a deep way, I simply call it the creative energy. I am aware of it and that every so often when it is triggered I can really feel it. For the most part it has been an active surging energy for a moment or two before it descends back to the base.

Solar flares and other stuff

I guess there must have been a whopper of a solar flare last night as all three of us were awake  and incredibly restless through most of the night. As usual when this happens I feel like I have a low level fever and my skin cannot take anything touching it.

Three days of darkness and the expansion of self

I have been rather pleasantly surprised by the ease with which I am able to expand myself, to really feel myself as part of everything in my house. I know it sounds strange, but everything including the furniture is part of me, as it is in my reality.

I’ve not quite hit the stage where I can do so with people. I suppose it is necessary to practice within my own safe space before I attempt it further.

This is a state I imagine babies are in when they first incarnate. To them we are all one. They get to realise later that we are separate and it creates a bit of anxiety.

Self reliance

Our son was talking to his sister in Australia on Christmas day. They must have been discussing when he’d be moving out and making his own way in the world.

I heard him say, ‘I will do so, when I know I can rely on myself.’

I felt my heart constrict as my vision changed and I found myself looking at his energy field. Being so close to him, I prefer not to do this because it is an invasion of privacy. It was okay when the children were little, but unless there is a very good reason these days, I don’t do so…to him...or anyone else for that matter. Our children have their own paths to walk and it is not my job to interfere…it can be difficult but integrity has always been a big thing for me.

Anointing with love

Anointing is a word that I had, until recently, associated with religious fervour.

And yet over the last 5 days I have come to realise that it is a sacred ceremony of celebration. By, for example, massaging another with oils, you are in actual fact honouring the person with respect and love. How can this be bad as you pour into their body the love that you feel?

So…anointing has been running around in my head since Sunday. I’d not been sure why, but slowly as the days have unfolded I find that it is a word that is slowly sitting well with me and no longer has the same connotations that I had attached to it previously.

New era?

“Our relationship is two days old,” hubby announced yesterday afternoon.

Eh?

“The slate is wiped clean. Forget the past, don’t worry about the future, let’s the focus on the present - we all love presents.”

“Um…what you talking about?” I ask all agog and rather puzzled.

Sunday 16 September 2012

Excerpt from my diary - 16 Sept 2012

I have been cold since we arrived in France, despite the hot weather. I thought it was something to do with fear, because fear makes us cold.

But today I found out why. All my energy is concentrated in a long column of energy that runs from soul star chakra to earth star chakra through the middle of my body, and therefore my extremities like arms/hands and legs/feet have less energy.

We are transmuting together and are far more powerful because of it.

We were guided to go and visit the Chauteau. We have been visiting Castries for years and every time we have either arrived too late and missed the ‘open’ day to visit the gardens or it will happen once we leave.

Cleaning and clearing French style

Well, don’t I have egg on my face!!!

I thought I was the one with the steamy ideas, but didn’t count on hubby having a few up ‘his sleeve’ so to speak :)

Hot weather, hot man…what more could a woman ask for?