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Ramblings about life . . .

What I share about my life is simply to help reinforce the understanding that it is possible to live with love and laughter, in between the tough times.

Life is what we make of it, no matter how harrowing. We accept and embody this with-in ourselves, thereby allowing the energy to manifest outwardly in our reality.

It starts with each one of us as an individual to form the collective consciousness.

Be the dream.

We honour the light and the life within you.

Please be aware - I upload other bloggers' posts and then delete after a month. This is my journey and others help me understand where I am, until they become irrelevant (a few posts excepted).

Saturday, 30 April 2011


I’ve been feeling a tad irritated and impatient over the last few days. As an empath I’ve spent many years being in service by transmutting collective energies. What I have found is that when something of mine is lurking near the surface of which I’m unaware, the collective tend to snag it on their way out and fling it into my face.

Friday, 29 April 2011

Letting go of any fear you have of strong emotions

This is a blog written by a friend - it reinforces my channel about negative emotions. Synchronicity, eh?


There is a particular part of the 7 Directions Meditations which is pretty much what my day was about yesterday:

Thursday, 28 April 2011

Negative Emotions - collaborative channel

From Karen: I am not sure why we are rehashing this. I suspect this message is directed at me...

We are the beings of light that surround Karen and we greet you in love and pleasure.

There has been a bit of consternation over the disturbances that many of you are experiencing. Your world is in flux, constantly shifting and moving. Feeling doubt, fear, anger or any of the other emotions you term ‘negative’ is a part of your path. Each one of you is on a journey that is so ‘you’, nothing is right or wrong.

Tuesday, 26 April 2011

Oh no, 'dark' energy

This is a subject I don’t pay too much attention to – the woohoo of ‘dark’ energy or as some call it ‘psychic attacks’.

It’s not that I don’t believe in it – I do know it’s around but I’ve not had to deal with it much. Well, put it this way I have had to deal with it on the odd occasion, but I find it such a minor thing it’s not grabbed my attention enough to focus on it. I feel far more frightened by my own ‘stuff’ than by someone trying to drain or attack me.

Past life regression

I’m sitting here writing my blog while hubby is scrubbing the kitchen and I mean the whole kitchen. I’ve been banned from that area of the house and all I can smell wafting up the stairs is lemon and vinegar. This is a reaction to last night - a definite clearing, cleansing and vigorous sweeping out of that which no longer serves.

Saturday, 23 April 2011

Crystalline changes

Over the last week I’ve been shedding. Not only my internal emotions but externally as well. My skin is constantly dry no matter how much moisturiser I apply – within an hour it is dry. It is a strange dryness, though, not a peeling one like you get when you have too much sun. It is simply almost a shedding of my skin. I’ve also been so extremely thirsty – drinking gallons of water every day – so much so that I’m surprised I’m not a big round balloon of water.

Dover Castle, UK

Dover Castle - "Dover Castle is a medieval castle in the town of the same name in the English county of Kent. It was founded in the 12th century and has been described as the "Key to England" due to its defensive significance throughout history."

Walked around the castle before going into the underground secret war tunnels carved into the white cliffs centuries ago. These were used during WWII as a hospital, amongst many other uses it was put to.

Thursday, 21 April 2011


For ages now I’ve been trying to channel a meditation from Jem. I keep starting and then stopping. The reason is that it keeps bringing up so much stuff for me and I find it difficult to express what he is giving me. It also brings up loads of discomfort in the form of fear. I then shut down and have to get away.

The Bay Tree

Tuesday 19 April 2011
I was taking a brief rest outside in the sun lying back in my lounger soaking up the sun when something made me look up and over at the Bay tree in the corner.

My tabby kitty was sitting there staring up. My immediate thought was that she was interacting with ‘something’ and I wished I could see.

Tuesday, 19 April 2011


Monday, 18 April 2011

My meditation late this afternoon had me flooded with happiness.

I’ve collected unicorns since I was little. I had a huge collection in Cape Town, which I left with my mother. I figure she needed the unicorn energy more than I did. I have collected a few unicorns since being here in the UK, but as I don’t have much space I’ve had to restrict myself considerably.

Monday, 18 April 2011


Hah, the penny has finally dropped. For ages I’ve been feeling guilty but not aware that I was feeling this way...until today.

I was busy pottering around the house this morning, waiting for the person who was going to repair the chip in my windscreen, when I heard a voice asking why I was feeling so guilty. It sounded like me and certainly stopped me in my tracks. I didn’t have time to ponder ‘cause the doorbell rang.

For real, is your cat an alien?

Following on from the joke question that Estrella raised ‘Is your cat an alien’...

She might be on to something, ‘cause I’m sure that my cats are not ‘normal’ cats.

At the very bottom of our garden is a corner that my two felines seem to be fascinated by. Over the years I have seen them on the odd occasion sitting on the edge of the garden bed staring at the corner where we have planted a Bay tree. They always seem to be in a trance.

Wednesday, 13 April 2011

An interesting life

Saturday, 9 April 2011
My little Muntjac deer had slightly longer horns and spent most of the time curled up in my lap, finally standing on the last three breaths. We spent time together just ‘being’ in each other’s company.

Sunday, 10 April 2011
My little Muntjac deer is fully-grown with his full set of horns – this surprised me – surely it cannot have been so quick? He lay down at my right side with his front legs in my lap and seemed to doze until the end. Instead, a ram with brown markings on his face stood in front of me the whole time through the meditation. He had huge curling horns and his body was glowing whitely.

Tuesday, 12 April 2011

My sanctuary

I always find it interesting to watch my garden wake up in spring, especially after the harsh winters lately when it looks like a nuclear holocaust.

It is like a map of my life’s current energy, unfolding before my eyes. Each plant that has decided to join or stay with us gives me an idea of what we are working through, either as a family unit or as individuals.

Saturday, 9 April 2011

A magical meditation and the little Muntjac deer

I meditated this morning, outside in the sun about the little Muntjac deer that visited me yesterday. As I sat on the lounger the little deer appeared before me. It jumped up and placed its front hooves on my knees. It was then that I noticed it had horns and realised it was a buck rather than a doe. I must admit I’d been expecting a doe as they represent gentleness, compassion and unconditional love.

Friday, 8 April 2011

A visitation that had me smiling but puzzled too

I had to share my amazing experience yesterday whilst at work – I am supposed to be taking a break from blogging but couldn’t resist this share.

At approximately 3pm I was sitting in the tech room making phone calls to patients. As I was the only one in the building, besides the patients sleeping upstairs, it was very quiet. The admin block is at the back of the property and away from the ‘house’ where I was and was full of admin staff.