Portal opening

Ramblings about life . . .

What I share about my life is simply to help reinforce the understanding that it is possible to live with love and laughter, in between the tough times.

Life is what we make of it, no matter how harrowing. We accept and embody this with-in ourselves, thereby allowing the energy to manifest outwardly in our reality.

It starts with each one of us as an individual to form the collective consciousness.

Be the dream.

We honour the light and the life within you.

Please be aware - I upload other bloggers' posts and then delete after a month. This is my journey and others help me understand where I am, until they become irrelevant (a few posts excepted).

Wednesday, 31 August 2011

Funny haha

It has been a while since something has really fired up my intense curiosity and imagination.

I’d shut the door on trying any further connecting with this new person until I’d looked at it from all angles.

Today I opened the door and tried to find him, but found myself wading through quite a few bodies. Haha…I had a brief flash of someone and then another and another….

Tuesday, 30 August 2011


I am experiencing something that seems rather familiar but isn’t. I know it sounds odd.

When I was a kid I was aware of entities around me and could communicate with them. I sorta lost that as I got older, until I started on my spiritual journey and then the connection was there again.


Have you ever wondered what else shares our space with us?

We all know about the negative energies and for some of us, our demons are very real.

But what about the elementals?

Sunday, 28 August 2011

Influx of healing energy

Friday was a study in quiet solitude, a deep introspection that seemed to take me to a place I haven’t been to before.

On Friday afternoon I lay down for a sleep, as I was working Friday night. I woke to an amazing influx of healing energy. Thank you. It really perked me up. I am very grateful.

I had an amazing night at work, but today I am simply exhausted. Cannot get enough sleep.

Friday, 26 August 2011


Nothing…I feel nothing toward the world these days.

I have withdrawn so completely that I don’t even have any compassion and no desire to be part of it. This is very unusual for me as I’ve always been involved, initially, in the drama and then in the emotional transmutations for the collective.

Thursday, 25 August 2011


Overwhelmed is all I can think about today.

Everything seems to loom over me and is sending me into a state of anxiety.

There’s so much going on in my body, energy fields and mind. I am also feeling quite tearful again today which doesn’t help.

Even my job, that I’ve always felt confident about, seems to be giving me a bit of jip. We are on the brink of massive changes. I think I might be too comfortable in the old way. The idea of changing is not inspiring to me today. Strange isn’t it? I’ve been working toward this and yet now I’m having second thoughts.

I think I desperately need to get away. I’ve not had a holiday in a while. I’m probably winding down in all aspects of my life, from work to energy to ways of being and lifestyle. Clearing more clutter, which I thought was more or less done.

I am becoming a being of simplicity by removing the final bits of 3D that hang on relentlessly. Maybe this is a final shot from 3D at keeping me in place. Possibly bits of me are in on the act.

Memories are flooding in at such a fast rate I cannot cope. The thought of writing any more today makes me shudder.

Athena intimated that I am not only clearing the last of my 3D emotional memories, I am also revealing ones from the higher realms I had forgotten. Meditating on my love of horses will open these.
I’m not ready for it today…maybe tomorrow. Today I am going to wallow.

I am sitting here listening to Tears for Fears. Guess what has just come on?   Woman in Chains :)

Wednesday, 24 August 2011


Yesterday was quite a restless day. I decided I was going to write about my love of horses, but didn’t quite get around to it.

This morning I woke with a vision of myself at a young age riding a pony. It was like the cartoon depiction of Giles, with those fat little ponies and their scruffy riders.

The Gold Solar Planet (6th Dimension)

I thought I'd uploaded this a while ago but on checking through my blog I don't think I have.

This was sent to me by a friend a while ago.

Monday, 22 August 2011


My hubby sent me this joke. Thought it was very funny:

After being married for 40 years, I took a careful look at my wife one day and said ...... "Forty years ago we had a cheap house, a junk car, slept on a sofa bed and watched a 10-inch black and white TV, but I got to sleep every night with a hot 23-year-old girl.

Sunday, 21 August 2011

Spiritual loving

Over the years I’ve seen friends, who’ve been on the spiritual path, find that the partnerships they have been in are not conducive to their spiritual growth. They’ve separated and eventually entered a relationship with another who was more ‘spiritually in-volved’. These have ended in disaster, as what they thought was a beautiful partnership, descended into the same problems they experienced in their previous relationship.

Saturday, 20 August 2011

Lion energy

Whilst in the bath this morning soaking away the night duty, I did my usual grounding routines, flames, etc.

As I lay quietly without any thought, a pair of eyes slowly came into focus. All I could see were two amber eyes and a beige/brown broad nose. I pulled back a bit to get a better view and discovered it was a lion. Well, I thought it was a lioness at first but the further back I went, I realised he had a mane.

Friday, 19 August 2011

Balance, spiders and mice

I found myself slightly tetchy this morning when I woke. Don’t ya love that word ‘tetchy’?

It wasn’t my emotions, it was my body. Is there a difference? I wouldn’t have said so but…

I stared at the screen for a while before wandering downstairs trying to figure this out. On passing through the kitchen an orange grabbed my attention. So I peeled it and sat in the garden munching on it while thinking. It seemed to get the cogs going.

Thursday, 18 August 2011

A little sad

I was a little sad last night as I thought about my daughter so far away. I miss her. I realised that it is something I shove to one side rather than actually face it.

Last night I faced it. When I am tired I am far more vulnerable than usual. I suppose these last 6 years of night work has really given ‘them’ a chance to pierce any weak links in my armour, get in and nudge issues to the surface.


I sorta almost…almost unplugged in the early hours of this morning. Mainly because my work colleague fell ill. She tried not to disturb me during my ‘hour off’ but eventually knocked me awake to let me know that she had a tummy bug of some kind and what should she do.

Jeepers, how do you think quickly when pulled out of a deep sleep?

Tuesday, 16 August 2011

5D Mastery

Since my revelation yesterday about being in 5D permanently, I have been connecting with 5D Mother Earth. I cannot tell you how different this energy is and keeps me in a state of happiness and on an even keel.

I’ve done this because, as Sue mentioned, we have disconnected from the 3D matrix and have plugged into the 5D matrix. I’m not sure why I didn’t figure this out for myself?

A little more info

Athena has given me a little more information on this 5D thingie.

She asked me if I had noticed anything different lately. After a bit of prompting I finally twigged. When I walk anywhere lately people either walk into me as though I’m not there or when they do see me they smile as though they know me. So it’s either ignore me or embrace me. I’ve had this for a while so never quite really noted it as something different.

Sunday, 14 August 2011

What to say

What to say? I think this is going to be a short blog…but then again I tend to waffle…so maybe not.

It’s been a hard week, this past week. The height of the disturbing emotions happened on Friday. I was so weak and tired that even the simple act of walking to the High Street to buy some bread and milk was too much.

Saturday, 13 August 2011

Meditation Flash Mob Trafalgar Square

Another flash mob meditation is taking place in Trafalgar Square on 27th August 2011 from 18.30 to 19.00.

Simply show up, sit down and meditate, pray, relax in silence and spread some lovely energy, no matter what your belief or background.

Thursday, 11 August 2011

Quagmire of emotions

I was slightly worried about why I seem to be falling into this quagmire of emotions. I thought I was past this and going on to do other things. I also seem to be waivering between jumping onto my war horse fully armoured and entering the battle and quietly being in the moment and allowing the emotion. Suppose it’s my masculine side fractiously rubbing shoulders with my feminine.

Wednesday, 10 August 2011

A deliberate sleep

I am starting to see the bigger picture. The download of information is coming fast and furious and I am having difficulty sifting through it all to make sense of it.

The collective have agreed to deliberately remain asleep. On another level each one of the collective are aware of what is going on. Our step forward each day is into new territory and therefore there is no idea of what the outcome is. We are creating as each second ticks by.

Come together right now...

A wonderful blog of a friend to wake to this morning -


This article from Volunteering England illustrates that people can and do come together in times of crisis.

Tuesday, 9 August 2011

Anger at suppression

Oh gosh…another blog. Athena is sure on a roll here.

So much coming in and not enough fingers to type.

The wave of anger at suppression will spread across the western world. Brace yourselves. The sun has certainly stirred up quite a bit that needs to come out.

As the world descends into turmoil...

As the world descends into turmoil there is so much that lightworkers can do.

Our brothers and sisters in the thick of things are there to do a job of creating awareness in the world and to bring about change from grassroots level. My gratitude and thanks to you for this very hard mission you have taken on. Take this energy that we send you and use it to the best of your ability. You are the foot soldiers and I salute you for your bravery. You are part of the huge army bringing about change across the face of the planet. I surround you with protection so that you may complete your mission.


I wrote this blog a while ago. Athena said I should wait to upload it as the time is not right. Today she gave me the go ahead.

My family has a really bad relationship with money. I’m pretty sure most of the planet has a similar story to tell. It is certainly a lesson passed down from generation to generation.

It is only in the last 6 years that I have resolved that painful history and now find that money is a friend and a positive energy. Each year it’s getting better and better.

Days go by and still I think of you

This morning I woke and asked, ‘what’s on the agenda today?’

It is a day to spend with myself, meditating. I had a huge download last night and I need to spend time integrating.

I should have known something was up when both my kitties came to lie with me.

I put on some music and sat down to meditate. I expanded the flames until they surrounded my auric field completely.

Sunday, 7 August 2011

Flames of bliss

Whilst practising with the flames, I always find myself in a state of bliss.

I sometimes forget the flames are ‘out there’. I can get on with other things while flaming everything around me but get reminded by a twinge in the root area of my body. Twinge that I can only describe as pleasure – almost sexual in nature – but not really. I suppose it’s almost rapturously orgasmic.

Saturday, 6 August 2011


After reading (on Yahoo) the headlines about America’s credit rating this morning and reading tnordman’s blog about the financial situation, I decided to ask Athena, ‘cos it’s been in in my mind quite a bit lately as I can sense a massive change coming. I know many are worried that it will affect them badly and I was wondering how to ease the fear I can sense moving around the planet.

Here is what she said to me –

Kill your speed

Every morning as I sit in bed sipping my coffee looking out the window, I can see in my line of vision a notice on the pole saying KILL YOUR SPEED.

Hehe…wish I could, ‘cos I seem to be hurtling somewhere pretty fast energetically. I’ve only noticed it in the last three months. I don’t know if it is a new sign or I’d just never seen it before.

What a positively awful night last night. I feel like I’ve been through the ringer.

Hang on to your hats

Here, there and everywhere

This feeling of couldn’t be bothered still permeates my day. And yet despite this, when I do something it seems so effortless. I must be going with the ‘flow’.

I sat down in meditation today to practice with the flames. In each chakra I now have a flame that has settled there for the last few days.

Solar plexus has the green flame of truth, heart has the blue flame of peace and prosperity, third eye has the amethyst flame and crown has white flame of purity and cleansing.

Friday, 5 August 2011

Sleep apnoea

Sleep apnoea

I know that this is not a subject that is very esoteric but I do feel that it is relevant to quite a few who probably have no idea that they have this symptom and I have had many questions asked about it. Esoterically I think it is very important because we are breathing the life force in – without breathing we would die.

I am going to explain the anatomy/physiology of it in the 3D world and then address the energy side.

Thursday, 4 August 2011

Am I bovvered?

Ugh…funny how when I decide I am not going to write a blog, something comes along to jog me into enthusiasm…well sort of…it might be a slightly weaker version of it – ‘asm’ without the ‘enthusi’.

I had a significant meditation yesterday afternoon but figured this one I would NOT write about, cos this is mine and mine alone. I wafted my hands through the air in a shrug. No, not for anyone but me…I’m gonna be selfish.

Tuesday, 2 August 2011

Silver flame and chakras

Uh oh…woke this morning to find another flame added – the Silver flame.

I was wondering about it yesterday – I gotta stop doing it.

I associate gold with a more masculine energy and silver with a more feminine energy – like the sun and the moon.

The Silver flame is grace and seems to be anchored in my sacral chakra.

The Gold flame

Saturday was a good day of miraculous happenings and I had so much good news that I was on a high. We had a fabulous day out and about and the sun was shining.

Sunday I woke feeling fabulous until approximately midday then a sort of irritation started. My body felt uncomfortable and the irritability grew. I tried to heal myself and hide it from hubby but he knew and finally after attempting to talk to me a few times, left me alone.