Selfishness

It has come to my attention lately that I’ve been so wrapped up in my own world that I’ve neglected those that I know…unless they are in my immediate radius. 

Time seems to fly by…and the next thing I note I’ve not contacted my daughter, mother, a friend, etc…all those living so far away.

I’m wondering if all this ascension work is making me selfish…it would do so to a degree because I am focused inward rather than outward. But as things rush along…and new downloads and uploads happen, I seem to have lost touch with ‘every day life’ as I used to know.

I’ve never had a problem keeping in touch with those that are important to me.

I know…I know…some people get flung out of our reality because they are not resonating at the same vibration. It has happened time and again and on the odd occasion we’ve connected further along the road.

It is walking the fine line between 5D and 3D reality I suppose.

This morning I contacted our friend living in Australia, who’d spent two months back home in South Africa over the Christmas holidays, to tell her that we were coming out. We’d briefly discussed it before she left but I’d not booked the flights…and yet she tells me that I did give her the dates. I don’t remember doing that…

How’s that for confusion…in some reality I am connecting and yet in another I’m not.

Who the heck knows where I am these days. I have to figure it out. Wish there was some flag somewhere letting me know what I’ve done in one reality and what I haven’t in another.

I kinda feel like the motor of a car that has started and we are idling...waiting for the right time to pull off from the kerb.

Hubby is being very secretive…yesterday he disappeared for the afternoon with my nephew and his fiancé – I wasn’t invited. I am suspecting they are conniving something between them...maybe for my 50^th? When I asked him what they did he gave me some inane answer. Poor man…we always discuss everything…must be difficult to keep a surprise as a surprise. So I won’t push.

Hubby has outdone himself this weekend with the most amazing meals he has concocted. Said in the run up to my birthday he is spoiling me with food…amongst other things…hehe.

Am I a satisfied woman…yeah…big time…despite being confused about the realities. At least in each one of them he is the same…or is he? Gotta think about that one.

P.S. haha...M11...thanks...'saucey' cat indeed :-)