It took a while...

No, no, no…I thought as I was walking back from the hospital today after an afternoon course.

This is not what I want. I asked the question and instead of receiving an answer, I was shown…because I need hands on experience for it to get through to me, what it is I really want.

Set myself up beautifully to find out, didn’t I?

I seem to have spent more time at work than at home and it reminds me of the days I used to work all the God-given hours to make ends meet. Quality of life was not what it could have been and it took me a long while to recognise that and make changes. Taking me back to that state has certainly helped me make up my mind.

Thank you to all my selves for helping me to see where I really want to be.

Last night in the early hours of the morning, whilst my colleague was on her break, I felt an overwhelming sense of love as my heart opened. Hubby had suddenly popped into my mind and the instant he did, the love I felt for him burst through.

‘I shouldn’t be here,’ I thought, ‘I should be with him.’

It reminded me of the holiday in France last year when we were cocooned in our own world filled with love, laughter and sunshine.

Bingo…it hit home…I’d forgotten about it. That’s what all the sacred union travelling is going to be all about…and I’d forgotten…can you believe it…I’d forgotten.

And so we come full circle…it has taken a week for me to figure this out since it all started last Tuesday.

Imagine my surprise this afternoon to discover that Mati had written a blog about sex/sacred union and had uploaded Liora’s video.

I can hear them up there heave a sigh of relief…I finally ‘got it’. Hehe…it took a while but I’m back on track.

Nothing like taking me back to see how far I’ve come...and what I don’t want to be going back to.