Portal opening

Ramblings about life . . .

What I share about my life is simply to help reinforce the understanding that it is possible to live with love and laughter, in between the tough times.

Life is what we make of it, no matter how harrowing. We accept and embody this with-in ourselves, thereby allowing the energy to manifest outwardly in our reality.

It starts with each one of us as an individual to form the collective consciousness.

Be the dream.

We honour the light and the life within you.

Please be aware - I upload other bloggers' posts and then delete after a month. This is my journey and others help me understand where I am, until they become irrelevant (a few posts excepted).

Monday, 6 February 2012

Expect the unexpected

Expect the unexpected has been a motto of mine for years.

Simply because I could never in any of my wildest dreams come up with anything that tends to sideswipe me from time to time.

I will be skipping along gaily (or not) when all of a sudden a huge hammer will come from the side and knock me into another reality. I figure it’s because I’m such a stubborn so and so and when I’m happy and all my defences are down...that’s the easiest time to hit me.

After last night’s revelation about the darker aspect of myself (who feels extremely powerful, by the way, and if I am not mistaken might be on parr with Athena herself). I didn’t feel like she meant me any harm, but was merely letting me know that she existed and as such another aspect of myself that needs acknowledging and integrating.

I climbed into bed and slept really well until approximately 3:30, when my eyes popped open and I couldn’t sleep. Another download…my body was so sensitive I couldn’t sleep with any covers on, in spite of the freezing weather. As soon as I threw the duvet over me, my body would object and I’d heat up so much I’d be on fire. My skin felt like it was rippling with the fire. I think it lasted about two hours before I fell asleep.

I didn’t get much information during that time, as I was so focused on what was happening to my skin. Skin crawling are the words that come to mind.

Thinking about it this morning something really strange happened last night. Just before I sat down to write Chapter 2, the electricity in one portion of the house seemed to trip off and it happened to be in the space where I was sitting.

Hubby checked everything but nothing seemed to have caused it. All the plugs and electrical appliances were working…it was simply the lights and heating that had gone off. We decided we’d give someone a call in the morning and switched on the immersion heater so that we’d at least have some hot water in the morning.

Voila! Once I’d channelled my darker aspect and uploaded the blog, everything switched on. Makes me wonder if she was hanging around and I wasn’t aware of her and once she left all went back to normal.

I’ve had these electrical disturbances before but on most occasions it’s caused by me, especially when my vibration increases. It takes a while for the electrical appliances to catch up. My poor laptop gets it in the neck most mornings because the increase in vibration seems to happen nightly/daily. When she struggles I know I’ve had a download.

But you know, despite the initial shock I am feeling really good about this…anticipation is running around in my body and I feel myself heaving a sigh of relief. Almost like a family who has hidden a deep dark secret, using all in their power to make sure no-one finds out. But once it’s out, it is quite a relief not to have to use so much energy to make sure it stays a secret.

It might not be interesting to others, but I find this twist in the tale like a thriller that takes an unexpected turn.

I might be cursing her in a few hours’ time and wishing I could take back the above words.

But heyho…off to work ‘we’ go.


sisteroflight said...

An encounter with the dark goddess archetype? I know that feeling. I thought this journey was going to be about ridding myself of my dark side but that's not really right is it. Love to you

Karen-Pallas said...

No it seems not. It's about integrating and becoming whole. I must admit that I'd thought I'd done this.
Much love to you, Sue.