Hubby told me last night, very gently, that I was telling
him what to do. If it wasn’t my way, then it was wrong.
I could feel myself going into defensive mode, ‘Me? Since when? I stopped doing that years
ago.’
Shock set in, then disbelief, and finally
wallowing pity.
‘Don’t take it
personally,’ he said, ‘but you did
ask the question and so I am telling you the truth.’
Finally he added, ‘It
doesn’t bother me, I simply let it go.’
Yikes…the truth can hurt sometimes…but it needed to be said. Sorta like skipping along happily and totally oblivious to all else except yourself, only to fall into a dark hole you never noticed and hitting your head really hard.
This morning I can see what he is talking about.
Initially, I was wary about this new entity in hubby’s body –
not sure about it. Then I became comfortable with the idea and then finally
WOOHOO set in – cos now we can DO things together.
Of course I completely forgot about the fact that there has
only been a few short months (and a few short visits over the previous 8 months)
for the entity and body to get used to each other, whereas I’ve had 50 years to
drive my body insane. In my enthusiasm I was telling him what to do.
AND…even though we are twins, he still has his own path to
walk…we are not joined at the hip or anywhere else for that matter. We are
individuals in our own right and are of course here to experience as
individuals. So instead of stepping back to give him space…I move up close and
take control.
Bless you, hubby, for your understanding…and being brave
enough to tell me.
The difficulty is not acknowledging that he is right or
saying sorry, but in forgiving myself.
4 comments:
I'm in awe about how you cope with the whole experience, Karen. Deep respect to you.
I just want to concur with Sue here and say that I have felt this many times, and that very much goes for your very intriguing and rock solid hubby as well :)And also a HUGE thanks for all the inspiration and deep insight in the releationship/twin part of all this.. Since I AM so lucky to also have a twin, we are very much loving to get such amazing insights, and explore our connection on all levels <3
Hehe...once I get off my high horse!
Thank you...deep respect for you too as you make your way in this world.
Oh gosh...that is so sweet, thank you. Yeah...hubby is rock solid...he also doesn't let me get away with much :-)
The codes are really making a huge difference, I can see it and feel it...and they seem to help things clear a lot quicker, so my ability to work through issues is amazing fast.
Thank you once again for sharing your incredible codes.
Much love to you both
<3
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