Finally!! Results of the MRI scan…everyone was waiting for the head honcho to give his opinion.
It seems our daughter’s partner has to wear a neck brace for approximately six months…no op needed.
They are going to discharge him tomorrow and he will have regular check-ups and physio...no work and definitely no sport!!
I think we have all heaved a huge sigh of relief…and the two sweeties are so pleased to be leaving the hospital and going home.
Amazing what a long soaking meditative bath and a good sleep can do for me. I spent an hour in the bath simply being in the energy, accepting it, releasing it and getting insights.
It seems I have once again been controlling. This is being reflected to and from me as everyone around me experiences a similar need for control. We all have control issues in one way or another and spend huge amounts of time effort and energy trying to persuade everyone in various ways to conform to our ideas - whether we are aware of it or not. As you can imagine it is quite exhausting.
I did not realise that these thoughts and emotions were lurking around in my psyche as I've done so much letting go of control over the years…but they were and I was clearly shown what they were. Each time I had a controlling thought, a barb of energy would head out to whoever was on the receiving end…and conversely I was receiving something back and vice versa. It is no wonder we are all feeling a tad overwhelmed with all of this energy zinging around.
Of course the fact that I was obsessing should have been a clue in itself :-) We don't obsess unless it is necessary for us to take notice of what we are doing, so we keep doing it over and over and over again until we do notice...or, as in my case, don't until someone wallops you!
As we grow in our power, we are constantly reminded to be aware of the thought running around in our head. Mostly this is because ‘with power comes responsibility’ – hah – did I just write that? It is our responsibility to make sure that our growing power is not creating chaos. This is slightly difficult, as most of us are unaware of the programmes running in the background. But I was sure given a heavy dose of this understanding over the course of several days.
My boundless gratitude and appreciation to those who have reflected this to me. You are aspects of me that I needed to accept and integrate instead of pushing away and ignoring. It has helped me to clear that which no longer serves. And…I am feeling so much freer and at peace. I did not realise how constricting and overpowering this need for control was.
In the midst of all of this was my darling daughter, who thought she was phoning me for support. In reality she was supporting me by bringing me back to my heart each time so that I could bathe whatever issues were coming up for release, in unconditional love.
Thank you sweetie pie…you have no idea what a shining beacon you have been for me these last few days. I love you.