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Ramblings about life . . .

What I share about my life is simply to help reinforce the understanding that it is possible to live with love and laughter, even with tough times.

Life is what we make of it, no matter how harrowing. We accept and embody this with-in ourselves, thereby allowing the energy to manifest outwardly in our reality.

It starts with each one of us as an individual to form the collective consciousness.

Be the dream.

We honour the light and the life within you.

Please be aware - I upload other bloggers' posts and then delete after a month. This is my journey and others help me understand where I am, until they become irrelevant (a few posts excepted).

Thursday, 16 August 2012

Finally!! some good news

Finally!! Results of the MRI scan…everyone was waiting for the head honcho to give his opinion. 

It seems our daughter’s partner has to wear a neck brace for approximately six months…no op needed. 

They are going to discharge him tomorrow and he will have regular check-ups and physio...no work and definitely no sport!!

I think we have all heaved a huge sigh of relief…and the two sweeties are so pleased to be leaving the hospital and going home.

Amazing what a long soaking meditative bath and a good sleep can do for me. I spent an hour in the bath simply being in the energy, accepting it, releasing it and getting insights.

It seems I have once again been controlling. This is being reflected to and from me as everyone around me experiences a similar need for control. We all have control issues in one way or another and spend huge amounts of time effort and energy trying to persuade everyone in various ways to conform to our ideas - whether we are aware of it or not. As you can imagine it is quite exhausting.

I did not realise that these thoughts and emotions were lurking around in my psyche as I've done so much letting go of control over the years…but they were and I was clearly shown what they were. Each time I had a controlling thought, a barb of energy would head out to whoever was on the receiving end…and conversely I was receiving something back and vice versa. It is no wonder we are all feeling a tad overwhelmed with all of this energy zinging around.

Of course the fact that I was obsessing should have been a clue in itself :-) We don't obsess unless it is necessary for us to take notice of what we are doing, so we keep doing it over and over and over again until we do notice...or, as in my case, don't until someone wallops you!

As we grow in our power, we are constantly reminded to be aware of the thought running around in our head. Mostly this is because ‘with power comes responsibility’ – hah – did I just write that? It is our responsibility to make sure that our growing power is not creating chaos. This is slightly difficult, as most of us are unaware of the programmes running in the background. But I was sure given a heavy dose of this understanding over the course of several days.

My boundless gratitude and appreciation to those who have reflected this to me. You are aspects of me that I needed to accept and integrate instead of pushing away and ignoring. It has helped me to clear that which no longer serves. And…I am feeling so much freer and at peace. I did not realise how constricting and overpowering this need for control was.

In the midst of all of this was my darling daughter, who thought she was phoning me for support. In reality she was supporting me by bringing me back to my heart each time so that I could bathe whatever issues were coming up for release, in unconditional love.

Thank you sweetie pie…you have no idea what a shining beacon you have been for me these last few days. I love you.


Anonymous said...

oh gosh,dear K,I am so glad to read this...and that all seems to be going into the right direcction..well,no work for 6 months can sound frightening if seen from one side,or exhiliarating,if seen from another...I hope they are able to see it from the exhiliarating side and make the most of it :)
I so know the control-thing you are talking about,especially with my children,I am often trying to care for them in a very "global" way,and that includes their energetic state...I do that because I want them to be well...but i do this also because I want to be well through their wellbeing,thus often not allowing them to go through maybe some more difficult lessons which they have to learn.
So tricky,isnt it,especially with our kids...
It is my own fear that makes me do that,fear of seeing them ill or in a mess,which makes me suffer greatly.Argh.
Learning curve...

Sending big hugs to you...and thank you for your blogs,they are enlightening and helpful.
Much Love,

Dorothy said...

I am so glad that your son-in-law is healing. Interesting choice his soul made huh? Let's break my neck and see what happens next? Yikes! I'm very glad your your daughter, you and your whole family that you get to keep him around, whole and well.
I understand getting knocked over the head with our control issues. I am sooo much better than I used to be, in fact, my husband seems to think I don't care about "whatever issue he is fretting about" and it's not that. It's just that I know that whatever it is, is not for me to direct or judge. Been hard to step back after so many years of "running" the show lol. My daughter once brought that to my attention and that conversation shook me up so much I had to really look at what I was doing. Work has also been an extremely good teacher for me in that respect. Went from being my own boss for 25 years to being a mere peon with absolutely no say in anything!! Omgosh wasn't that a big cold shower for me.
That iron grip I had on things in my life had to be loosened for sure.
Funny how I thought being in control would make me and everyone else happier....not so much. I am way happier now than I ever was and more at peace with life since I'm not in charge of the world anymore!
I am happy for you for everything you mentioned in your post. Thank you for sharing so much of yourself here.

Karen-Pallas said...

Thank you with appreciation Dorothy and Johanna for your wishes and for sharing your stories.
Hmm...the pesky and thorny issue of control. Seems we are not gonna knock this completely on the head for a while - and I am not completely sure how (in this body), as I've not ever lived without some form of control. I suppose until we have pulled most of our authentic selves into our body we will constantly need to control and monitor everything around us.
And so we bounce on hitting the highs and lows :-) learning as we go.