I’m feeling a little sad today.
I skyped with my mom yesterday. I always feel sad afterward
for a few days.
To see my mother reduced to a carer and my stepdad losing
his faculties of both mind and body is difficult – even though I know they have
their life paths to walk and I don’t know what they are here to learn and
understand.
She and my stepdad are a very generous couple, who were very active hikers, have
travelled extensively and shared their good fortune without reservation with their
respective families.
Every year they came over to the UK for 5 months when our
kids were tiny and we travelled all over Europe with them on our summer
holidays.
My stepdad’s knowledge of the world is phenomenal. I assume this
is partly due to having been in the Navy and then going to work for Nato as
well as his insatiable thirst for knowledge. Because of his job was moved to
different posts and lived all over the world.
I look forward to the day when ‘old age’ is a time of celebration of health,
wisdom, relaxation and enjoyment.
But I suppose until then I have to accept that for many the
term old age is going to be linked to illness and deterioration of the body and
mind.
I understand that my stepdad’s health these last three years
has kept them away from the UK and therefore hubby and I. We no longer vibrate
at the same level.
My mother is not perfect, nor for that matter is my real dad.
Both of them can be harsh, intolerant and judgemental…but then who isn’t?
And yet, even though my parents and I might have
disagreements and do not see eye to eye on certain things, both of them and my
stepdad totally support me in everything I do. They don’t understand the way
that I think or perceive the world, but even so they are proud of me…and for
this I am truly grateful to them.
They never stint in the expression of their love for me...
I am very blessed.
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