My darling hubby has tapped into his feminine side. I should have thought about my request to download more of the feminine energy…whatever I go through…he goes through :-)
He came home on Thursday excited about a new store that had opened and waxing lyrical about all the stuff he’d seen. Said I’d love it…and then announced that it was time we re-did the lounge. Eh?
Anyways…off we went to Tunbridge Wells yesterday to see this fab shop. Ah heck…certainly got my juices going. We walked around sighing…what a dangerous shop! He was like a kid in a candy shop, excitedly pointing out all the different things he thought I’d like.
We chose quite a few things and he said, ‘We deserve this…we’ve worked hard to get where we are.’
Wow…never in a million years…
It made me quite tearful…hubby has suffered with PTSD since his army days. He saw quite a lot of gruesomeness in the bush warfare, being a fighting medic going out for a month at a time into the middle of nowhere, having to rely on each other, forming friendships…and then patching up injured friends/soldiers or sitting with the dying. He lost many a comrade during that time…and told me once that he’d cried so many tears over those years that he had none left to shed. He seldom talks about it...if he does it is always about the 'good times'...if you can have good times in a war...
It made me realise how far he has come…and I’m so happy to see him finally acknowledging that he deserves beauty and happiness in his life…the guilt of the soldiers who survive is so very debilitating.
I am so proud of you, babe, you’ve come incredibly far and grown so much. I love you deeply, from here to eternity.
The covers that we bought for the couches…wow beautiful jewelled colours…so bright and happy.
I also got a large round lovely cane swivel chair for the bedroom…I’m sitting in it now as I type. I have a grin from ear to ear. Life is good and I want to share it.
It reminded me of a blog I did last year about feeling guilty at the happiness I have in my life.
We’d both been feeling similar feelings of guilt…amazing how we mirror each other…even though our reasons for feeling guilt are different. Over this last year he, like me, has been letting go this emotion.
Queen is playing - I want it all :-)
Haha…I heard the words, ‘So why not share your bounty. You have so much experience and knowledge…share it.’ Indeed…what is holding me back from my sharing of knowledge?
Phew! This new downloading of the feminine has certainly helped us to leap to another level…and I see so many clues along the way to this new existence...of which community living is all part of it…where no one person is in charge…we are all flexible parts of the whole that gel and move synchronistically. It won’t all be a bed of roses…that I understand…because until we are in full mastery of our energy there will be hiccups.
Hubby did say that he thought our little home here in the UK is our sanctuary to return to and rest in between our travelling. He could be right. I am not putting any limits on where we are going…I’m simply holding the vision of the sacred travelling and anchoring of the energy and will flow wherever I am taken.
All I know is that I am happy…very happy and willing to take my sanctuary with me to wherever I am called. I, like the snail, carry my happiness and love with me and that is all I really need, isn’t it?
Oh yeah…I managed to find Zumba class during the day down the road from us…bring it on :-) Amazing what you can draw to yourself when you ask.