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Ramblings about life . . .

What I share about my life is simply to help reinforce the understanding that it is possible to live with love and laughter, in between the tough times.

Life is what we make of it, no matter how harrowing. We accept and embody this with-in ourselves, thereby allowing the energy to manifest outwardly in our reality.

It starts with each one of us as an individual to form the collective consciousness.

Be the dream.

We honour the light and the life within you.

Please be aware - I upload other bloggers' posts and then delete after a month. This is my journey and others help me understand where I am, until they become irrelevant (a few posts excepted).

Sunday, 29 April 2012

My darling hubby has tapped into his feminine side

My darling hubby has tapped into his feminine side. I should have thought about my request to download more of the feminine energy…whatever I go through…he goes through :-)

He came home on Thursday excited about a new store that had opened and waxing lyrical about all the stuff he’d seen. Said I’d love it…and then announced that it was time we re-did the lounge. Eh?

Anyways…off we went to Tunbridge Wells yesterday to see this fab shop. Ah heck…certainly got my juices going. We walked around sighing…what a dangerous shop! He was like a kid in a candy shop, excitedly pointing out all the different things he thought I’d like.

We chose quite a few things and he said, ‘We deserve this…we’ve worked hard to get where we are.’ 

Wow…never in a million years…

It made me quite tearful…hubby has suffered with PTSD since his army days. He saw quite a lot of gruesomeness in the bush warfare, being a fighting medic going out for a month at a time into the middle of nowhere, having to rely on each other, forming friendships…and then patching up injured friends/soldiers or sitting with the dying. He lost many a comrade during that time…and told me once that he’d cried so many tears over those years that he had none left to shed. He seldom talks about it...if he does it is always about the 'good times'...if you can have good times in a war...

It made me realise how far he has come…and I’m so happy to see him finally acknowledging that he deserves beauty and happiness in his life…the guilt of the soldiers who survive is so very debilitating.

I am so proud of you, babe, you’ve come incredibly far and grown so much. I love you deeply, from here to eternity.

The covers that we bought for the couches…wow beautiful jewelled colours…so bright and happy.

I also got a large round lovely cane swivel chair for the bedroom…I’m sitting in it now as I type. I have a grin from ear to ear. Life is good and I want to share it.

It reminded me of a blog I did last year about feeling guilty at the happiness I have in my life.

We’d both been feeling similar feelings of guilt…amazing how we mirror each other…even though our reasons for feeling guilt are different. Over this last year he, like me, has been letting go this emotion.

Queen is playing - I want it all :-)

Haha…I heard the words, ‘So why not share your bounty. You have so much experience and knowledge…share it.’ Indeed…what is holding me back from my sharing of knowledge?

Phew! This new downloading of the feminine has certainly helped us to leap to another level…and I see so many clues along the way to this new existence...of which community living is all part of it…where no one person is in charge…we are all flexible parts of the whole that gel and move synchronistically. It won’t all be a bed of roses…that I understand…because until we are in full mastery of our energy there will be hiccups.

Hubby did say that he thought our little home here in the UK is our sanctuary to return to and rest in between our travelling. He could be right. I am not putting any limits on where we are going…I’m simply holding the vision of the sacred travelling and anchoring of the energy and will flow wherever I am taken.

All I know is that I am happy…very happy and willing to take my sanctuary with me to wherever I am called. I, like the snail, carry my happiness and love with me and that is all I really need, isn’t it?

Oh yeah…I managed to find Zumba class during the day down the road from us…bring it on :-) Amazing what you can draw to yourself when you ask.


Anonymous said...

An interesting thing is happening here today KP ... now I see that your post is 11.44
This really jumped out as a message for me in so many ways.
Shopping has been a bit of a theme for me over this weekend ... your post may lead me on to writing about this myself.
It is interesting how you have said that your husband is getting in touch with his feminine side in this way. Shopping for me has always posed a bit of a sticky issue... not something which I have ever enjoyed ... I may even have viewed it as a `necessary evil.' Lately I have been seeing how this has got in the way of feelings of abundance and self worth .. thank you too to Judy Satori's activations for highlighting this for me as well.
So ... a case of feeling my delightful shadow aspects .. again.
Me & My Shadow :-)
Thanks for this post .. it has helped to highlight several things for me.
This is also part of balancing and healing the feminine which I have also been working with lately.
It is great how we seem to be connecting at such a rate to work through what I am really beginning to feel may very well be the last whispy shadowy bits ... as Inelia would say - We are leaving poo behind.

Anonymous said...

Also ... big hug for your husband. I so enjoy reading about your journey together and the love that you share.
Thank you for sharing it with us.
hugs and love

Karen-Pallas said...

Thank you, Matikat
I sometimes feel I could shout from the rooftops :-)
Haha...indeed we are leaving the poo behind...I'm wondering if the influx of flies we had last week had anything to do with that. It also mentions in the piece that I uploaded something about emotional poo. Could this also tie in with the community thing that seems to be featuring so strongly...Inelia's blog talks about the Power Of One?
So much synchronicity around lately - it is wonderful to experience being part of the baby steps we are taking toward unity.
Can't say I've ever been much of a shopper either, but lately this is all changing, but obviously within reason. I don't shop to fill a black hole as my sister calls it.
And woohoo...we do deserve it!

Karen-Pallas said...

Darn...sorry...meant to say Power Over Others...or I suppose power of one could be the same thing, couldn't it?