Bizarre moment

I had a very bizarre moment whilst washing my hair yesterday – as you do :-)

I moved into a second space, not sure how or why, but one instant I was in this reality and the next somewhere else as well.

It was whilst in this ‘somewhere else’ I understood the connection of everything in my reality to me.

I’ve experienced this before, but this time it seemed ‘more’ somehow.

It was a moment of AHA – it is all me, every ET, every UFO, every newspaper, shooting, tree, bird, everything that lives and dies. It was an expansion of me. I was the Universal Being and within me were all these experiences playing out.

Everything is me and therefore you. We are all one being who has divided itself into millions of different aspects, each one contributing to the bigger picture. For that moment in time I was that one Being as well as everything else…and me.

But you know what really impacted on me was the sacredness of all that is happening, whether good or bad. The Universal Being has no agenda. It simply accepts all the experiences as part of itself and its - I don’t want to say evolution ‘cos that sounds odd…growth…not even sure that is a good word either…maybe understandings which doesn’t even come near to what I want to capture. It is BEing and yet at the same time it is DOing. Its benevolence is all encompassing.

It is light and dark, duality and polarity, happiness and sadness, a contradiction and yet at the same time it isn’t.  

I don’t suppose there are any words available…words are so limiting. Feelings are the currency of the moment that has you right here in the now.

Therefore if we have feelings about the past such as regret, resentment, fear or anger, we are stuck living in the past. This makes it difficult to move forward into something new. We need to clear the old to make way for the new...if we choose to.

But this is only one part of us. We are that benevolent all-knowing BEing too.

And we approve of ourselves and each moment that we exist is filled with this acceptance and this approval…we don’t always see, feel or understand it.

I am right and wrong, good and bad, fearful and loving. All these faces of myself come into my reality and talk to me. It sounds trite to say that it is up to me what I do with these faces and the truth is that it is of no consequence what decision I make. It simply IS.

You know how freeing this is. It’s as though I’ve been given the key to unlock the paralysing fear of the consequences of my actions.

I am wondering if the Universal BEing is the passive loving feminine aspect and we are the masculine DOing aspect as we create, experience and live? The reason I wonder this is that during my short time as part of this greater Being, it seemed accepting and passive, no matter what was playing out and yet surely it must have a DOing side?

Dunno…maybe I’m not making any sense at all…and maybe that is merely my perception of what is.