This whole not worthy business has been puzzling me…and like a dog with a bone, I have been gnawing away at it to figure out what is going on.
The pressure from this state has been very very strong. Where the hell has it come from?
As far as I know I’d cleared all of this and even if I did have some dregs, it surely would not be this strong, so strong it is making me feel so wrist slittingly depressed. I have recently been rapped over the knuckles for attempting to transmute for the collective…so what is this? Could I be doing this without knowing I am?
I did not sleep well last night…I was too hot and bothered to sleep…the pressure getting to me.
This morning I climbed into the shower and finally asked for help…yeah, I know…I’m stubborn…I like to figure things out for myself.
One thought led to another as I started to wonder if possibly I was wrong and I was feeling the collective feelings of humanity in the run up to the solar eclipse. Following my logical thoughts…I had an AHA moment.
The instant I thought this I knew I had hit on exactly what was going on…and I wasn’t transmuting for the collective of humanity.
A ceremony had been performed to get my attention and draw me into helping…the dark side. Yep, the dark side. It is this energy that has been knocking at my door pressurising me into noticing and actually answering them…and they kept doing it in the hope that they would get my attention.
Now I know many of you will be going Oh no this is catastrophic…but no, it is not.
The dark side have every right to return to the light like we are. They are feeling the pulse too. They have so much more than us to forgive and work through.
I mused about this thinking it through logically…did I want to accept or not? It took me a while to realise that in the instant I recognised what was happening, my soul had accepted the brief…and my mind was lagging behind, thinking it was still in charge. Hehe…
I then realised something else…the pressure had gone and the feeling of relief and hope was very tangible. So…in my ignorance and ‘woe is me‘, I’d not really focused on what was truly happening…wrapped up as I was in my own stuff. It is not about ME anymore…it is about unity.
So I laid down the rules…yes I will help but there are many conditions:
1. No leeching of my energy
2. No leeching of my energy
3. No leeching of my energy
4. No leeching of my energy
You get the idea…
Am I worried or frightened? No…I’m strong enough to deal with this. There will be a few hiccups on the way. So I need to remind myself of the conditions.
5. No letting them leech my energy
6. No letting them leech my energy
7. No letting them leech my energy
I might slip up and they might take advantage – it is the nature of the beast to do so – but you know what…I cannot turn down this opportunity to strengthen myself and to really show LOVE and COMPASSION. That is what I am – the pure embodiment of LOVE and how can I truly say that if I don’t walk the walk?
This is only a small group wanting help…the relief and hope that I feel coming off them is reward in itself. What this help entails I don’t know.
I am off to work now…haven’t fully worked out the details…but when I get a chance I will let you know.
Hehe…funnily enough ‘they’ didn’t want me to let anyone know. ‘Pah,’ I said, ‘time for secrecy is over and ya gotta now let all your guts hang out for airing.’
I cannot tell you how much lighter and better I feel since the ‘discovery’ this morning. Back to my usual happy self.