Is It a Dream?

I woke this morning with this song running around in my head - Is it a dream by Classix Nouveau. Took me a while to figure which song it was, cos all I heard was ‘is it a dream’.

This week has been very dreamlike…almost as though I am not who I am. I’ve been very focused inward and on things which have eluded me in the past…which has surprised me. Every so often I wonder when the bubble will break.

And…then this morning…BAM…huge nosebleed…one of the signs for me that I have made a major breakthrough. I feel slightly shaky, as though my nervous system has taken a battering.

So…this gives me an idea of how permanent this state is. One of getting to know myself once again. In the ‘old days’ the changes were incredibly subtle so it took a while to notice, but these days the changes hit you with all the subtlety of a freight train ;-)

What is different?

Difficult to say but within myself I feel far more confident and quieter, not so much chatter going on…and I have also noticed that when I ask questions there is silence…well, not so much silence as an expectation that 

I will answer my own questions. No more help then…

I have mulled this over and wondered why I am sorta left hanging out on my own. I think I have figured it out. This new world is up to me/us to create and there are no entities good or bad who should influence us. I know some will…but for me it is up to me what I want…without any interference. No pressure, eh?

But you’d think at this stage I’d know what I want. I didn’t initially but I didn’t worry about it. I simply let it vegetate and grow and now I know and I am not sweating the details - I'm simply focusing on the outcome.

Now that I am out of my dreamlike bubble, I did notice all the dragons hanging around again. Not sure if they’ve always been there or if they are here for some other reason.