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Ramblings about life . . .

What I share about my life is simply to help reinforce the understanding that it is possible to live with love and laughter, in between the tough times.

Life is what we make of it, no matter how harrowing. We accept and embody this with-in ourselves, thereby allowing the energy to manifest outwardly in our reality.

It starts with each one of us as an individual to form the collective consciousness.

Be the dream.

We honour the light and the life within you.

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Thursday, 17 May 2012

I am not worthy

I am not worthy…I am not of value…these thoughts were running around in my head last night. I still have some of them today.

Yikes…where did that come from?

Suddenly an overwhelming sense of being valueless hit me...has been following me…and some still does.

I don’t deserve anything in my life…the wonderful relationship I have with my hubby, the time that Vicky is devoting to teaching me, anyone who is a friend, the comfort that I experience, the love of all those in my life, the job that I have, my beautiful kitties…etc…the list went on and on.

My left hip started aching so badly and as I sit here now it is screeching at me. I am frightened of moving forward into my new life.

Ba’shiba sat with me as I worked through this, her wonderful eyes encouraging me as I released this very very deep issue. I still have some way to go…

The lack of value. I have to forgive myself for feeling this way. It is something needing to be cleared in order for me to move forward.

A final bitter hurdle standing in the way of a life of pure love and abundance. I am sure being pushed...or maybe shoved.

Hmm...maybe I should be listening to funeral march.

It’s a short blog today.


Dorothy said...

Perhaps too this might a little of you accessing the energy, the pain belt of humanity?
Hope you are feeling more lighthearted.

The Cauldron Keeper said...

I've been struggling with these thoughts lately, too.

Anonymous said...

Did you see Lisa's post KP...? It seems that this may be something which is coming up for many at the mo. Um .. odd .. these ads on your page are talking about mortgages ,car hire and over 65 holiday insurance ... can you pick which ones you want...? I remember you talking to me about the odd ads on LW once... funny.
This may be some residual stuff regarding money and value which needs to be finally released ...I have also been redressing my relationship with the spirit of money lately. A lot of this stems from trust that we will be provided for ... this is what I am getting anyway... and also being open to accepting.
Trust and acceptance ... those old chestnuts. :-)
Sending you warmth on a cold day.

Karen-Pallas said...

Thank you, Dorothy.

Karen-Pallas said...

Hugs of love to you

Karen-Pallas said...

Certainly a planetary thing we all need to clear.

Hehe...I do remember speaking about that on LWat...no they don't give a person much leeway about what you can and can't have. Some things you can cut out but many of them are to quote them - 'too big to stop' - whatever that means. So I just asked for text rather than text and image cos it takes too long to load and can be frustrating. It basically works on words they pick up and because I've been writing about money - voila! money things.
Maybe tomorrow's ads will be about LURVE :-)

I did read Lisa's post. She is spot on again, ain't she?

Loved today's one about raining sperm...hehe...saw your comment and blog.

Much love