I've had a full on clearing and then some Wednesday. It was put on hold yesterday because I had a full day at work and then went straight to an award ceremony with a colleague. Our unit was up for the Chairman's Cup for Teamwork...and guess what...we won :-) Yay. Okay we won half of the cup because we were joint winners with another unit. But still...
We received praise for years of continued high standards and commitment to patients who've consistently given us top marks for excellence. Such an affirmation for us of all the hard work. We won a little bit of money too...gonna spend it on ourselves...patting ourselves on the back.
Anyways...I've woken with this song playing in my head and a few tears and a sore throat. Figure I've still got a bit to work through. This aspect of me, I have a feeling, went slightly mad at her experiences, so it's quite a biggie.
Someone even suggested that it's Cassandra, an oracle that was blinded by someone in Greek mythology. She was an oracle priestess at Athena's temple. I don't really know much about it except that she was fought over by several men and finally raped by one. There was a lot of war involved...somewhere along the line she foretold the Trojan horse incident and muhc later cursed all future oracles as she was dying.
Whether this is she or not, I'm not sure...and in the long run, it doesn't matter really because it's the emotions and experiences that are important...and convincing her that life is not quite that bad, that there is hope and the world is changing. Whoever she is, she's very, very distressed...maybe I needed to be strong within myself before I could face this aspect of myself.
So I am gonna treat my mad blind oracle with love and gentle hugs. She is very distressed and I keep bursting into tears when I think about her.
So today is another day of clearing and regressing.
This song is for her...