Expectations

The expectations I place upon myself are ridiculous. I discover something new and then expect to be able to understand and ‘do it’ within a few hours or days…and then get myself tied up in knots when I cannot.

I realised that this had become an issue for me over the last few days…always expecting more. I woke this morning and thought, ‘I’m taking a break.’

Yep, a break from figuring this out…I’m going to simply let it all sink in slowly and allow what I know to become me.

Stepping back and stop acting like a mad scientist :)

Haha...I found this a few days ago. Wouldn't I love to have this in my back yard...

http://www.lukejerram.com/aeolus

Aeolus - Acoustic Wind Pavilion

Aeolus - ruler of the four winds in Greek mythology.

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Aeolus is a giant stringed musical instrument, an acoustic and optical pavilion designed to make audible the silent shifting patterns of the wind and to visually amplify the ever changing sky.

Different timelines

I’d recently started to get a niggling suspicion that I might possibly have been inserted into different timelines here on Earth. I’ve always known that I stepped down into the third dimension through the Pleiades, but that doesn’t actually make me Pleiadian.

I like the sound of being an Arcturian but even though this sort of rings true, it doesn’t resonate completely. Maybe the Arcturians also helped, like the Pleiadians, to ready me for my lifetimes on Earth.

Not here

Grroooaannn…I had to kick start myself this morning. No energy, puffy eyed and exhausted. When does it stop?

This bleary eyed feeling started yesterday afternoon with a strong restless feeling that I wasn’t completely here. Hubby was extremely irritable. He went off to play football and came back after an hour saying he was fed up and didn’t want to play. The tension in the house is palpable.

Consciously travelling

A while ago I asked when I would consciously be able to use my Merkaba to travel with my physical body.

The answer was short and sweet - when I have consciously moved my astral body without having to go into deep meditation, which is what I normally have to do.

Family units

 Had a very interesting thing happen in the early hours of Thursday morning.

A group of men were fighting up and down our road. Normally when this happens I simply place them in a column of balance and send them healing and eventually they move on or the fight disintegrates.

Living multi-dimensionally

Integration

Today I’ve had a long meditation and ‘discussion’ with Aeolus. He has put my mind at ease. I was worrying that I was missing out on so much with the constant downloads.

This is the gist of what he said.

Surely it gets better

Why did I believe that the higher I vibrated, the better things would get?

Hmm…I suppose it is better. If I look back over the last year right back to the beginning of the year, I can see how much I have grown. I am almost…almost not the same person and I am quite sure that if my extended family in South Africa were to see me, they would hardly recognise the inner me. The last time we visited was in 2005 and much has happened since then.

Letting go and moving on

On Friday I had a bit of an enlightenment. Our son had decided he does not want to continue studying and would prefer to work. After a long and frank discussion we notified the school that he would not finish Sixth Form.

Fine tuning the balancing act

A vivid dream about where I will be living in the not too distant future woke me this morning. I lay half asleep relishing the wonderful feeling it evoked. The peace and harmony I knew existed within the community and the sheer pleasure at knowing I was fulfilling my deepest desire.

Fractals Part 2

Yesterday, 14 November

Fractals grow, change and morph as needed, depending on our frequency.

Restlessness

Restlessness has been our constant companion. Both hubby and I feel like whatever we do is not quite right but we’re restless enough to keep trying to find what fits. Stepping out of the box…again. No handbook on what to do, but simply find what resonates with me.

Lovemaking

Gift from my hubby

Phwoar did 11.11.11 start with a bit of vooma.

I was woken rather pleasantly by an amorous husband and as I became aware of what was happening I found myself in my Merkaba speeding along the stars flashing past me.

Fractals

Fractals…a word that was running around in my head this morning when I woke. What on earth is a fractal? I’ve heard it before have never known what it is.

I decided to Google it and found out that fractals are the most beautiful of shapes – snowflakes for instance. When I saw some snowflakes, it reminded me of Dr Emoto’s work when he photographed the beautiful shapes that water crystals formed.

I learnt quite a bit of sacred geometry in 1996 such as the Fibonacci spiral and golden mean but never really paid much attention to it after that, although I did note the odd thing here and there. But I don’t remember the word fractal ever being used and now I discover the world is full of fractals – lightning, ferns, broccoli, peacock feathers, leaves, etc.

Angelic sirens

I had a very long meditation today and during this I decided to have a look at my left hip which has been giving me slight twinges lately of extreme pain which come and go. There’s no rhyme or reason to it.

Months ago I realised that my skeleton was becoming opal. Having a look at my left hip I could see that a portion of it had not grown fully into the change. It seems I am hanging on to the last bit because once that’s gone I have no excuse and will become fully an angelic crystalline human.

Lighting up the world

Daily I am coming to realise how important it is for us to reflect back to those around us, their inner magnificence. It keeps getting shoved in my face to let me know how much of a difference it makes to others.

I’ve never been given the chance to actually ‘see’ the results of any impact that I’ve made until recently. Maybe I didn’t need to know as I was so engrossed in my own stuff, that having the burden of responsibility firmly lain upon my shoulders might have freaked me out completely.

Jason McElway, Autistic Basketball Hero

A friend sent me this wonderful story of an autistic boy, whose passion is quite awe inspiring.

It is great to see such heartwarming and happy events in the news.

May our world soon be filled with similar miraculous events that become the norm.

Forgiveness

I have been having quite a bit of fun this morning using intention.

Yesterday evening when I arrived home from work, my son informed me that he’d ‘borrowed’ the mouse from my laptop as his wasn’t working. Fine…I wasn’t planning on using it much last night anyway and I could always buy a new one today.