Balancing pessimism with optimism

I amended this later on when I realised I'd not said what I really wanted to say.
 
My definition of pessimism - the fear of believing that change for the better is possible.

Some might quantify this as being 'realistic'...which is a view I used to subscribe to.

Dictionary meaning - someone who is resigned to defeat without offering positive suggestions.

Haven’t we all felt this at one time or another? As the years have gone by, I have found myself more optimistic than pessimistic. Clearing the inner emotional debris has certainly helped.

Optmists have faith in everything around them. We understand there is a purpose.

Laying the foundation of relationships

I must say that one thing has been puzzling me for a while about the commitment made by hubby and me in September. I hope I can communicate this puzzle well. Today I seem to have found some rather vague clarity about this puzzle whilst writing the previous blog...

The sexual aspect of our relationship seems to have taken a back seat…well mostly it has :-). I’m not sure why. Is it to do with how we are changing our relationship with each other and so the sexual energy changes?

Our energy interactions are different too. And yet all of this points toward friendship more than sexual partners. Which, as you might understand, sorta puzzles me because this is not where I expected to go. Not sure if I have explained this very well.

We are still sexually active in a different way as the emphasis has been more on friendship, trust and love rather than sex.

What a strange old week...

What a strange old week it’s been. Change all around once again…I’m having difficulty keeping up!

In September I had a dream that someone approached me at work and asked me if I would take over the managerial job. Eh?

I asked why and was told that our manager had resigned! I asked what was wrong with the tech above me doing it but it seems that she had her hands full with other stuff. I pretty much ignored that dream. I do have prophetic dreams quite often but I just figured this was simply my mind working overtime…until this week.

Huh…guess who has resigned and decided to go back to Australia -our manager.

Manifesting heart's desire

On the odd occasion I’ve wondered why I’ve been gifted with a twin-flame love in the physical. It is merely curiosity – me and my analytic brain trying to find the why’s and wherefore’s.

As far as I am concerned…and it is a long held belief…my inner sacred union of masculine and feminine is far more important than the outer one. Hmm…okay that sounds slightly ungrateful…I’m not, believe me, but curious as to the logic (if you can call it logic) behind this manifestation.

To be honest, I’ve never ever considered having a twin-flame in the flesh…it somehow happened without little ol’ me knowing it would. Well, I didn’t know…until the last moment.

The Infinity Symbol

The infinity symbol – figure of 8 – is very much prominent these days.

My engagement ring, I discovered on holiday, is created as an infinity symbol. I’d never really looked at it before then. One of the symbols is slightly above the other - the top symbol joined by its lower circle to the top circle of the bottom symbol.

It started off as two figures of 8 that were conjoined by the diamond (which represents the heart). Earlier this week I noticed that it was starting to ‘open up’/unfurl – which is the only way I can describe it. It seemed that there was a third figure of 8 between the two which represented our relationship.

Turn inward to find love

An extract from Diane Richardson's book - Tantric Love: Feeling Vs Emotion:

Love is overflowing joy. Love is when you have seen who you are; then there is nothing left except to share your being with others. Love is when you have seen that you are not separate from existence. Love is when you have felt an organic, orgasmic unity with all that is. Love is not a relationship. Love is a state of being; it has nothing to do with anybody else. One is not in love, one is love. And of course when one is love, one is in love – but that is an outcome, a byproduct, that is not the source. The source is that one is love. -  Osho, transcribed teachings, The Guest, Vol. 6

You are everything, you are nothing

Mirror image

"We live in illusion and the appearance of things. There is a reality. We are that reality. When you understand this, you see that you are nothing, and being nothing, you are everything. That is all." - Buddha

It is at this stage that I wish I could remember what Aeolus showed me one night in a dream. It had something to do with hubby and I…and the fact that we are something more than twin-flames. I remember seeing a flame and getting an understanding as the flame did something...but that is all.

I’ve done a Google search, on the odd occasion when I’ve thought about it, to see if I could get any more information but essentially came up with twin-flames all the time, although once I did see a twin ray, but I cannot say for sure that this is what he meant.

Past lives and how they impact on our life

I received this email from Susan Holland yesterday.

‘What I was directed to by the Akashic record guides was a clearing of old male energy between the two of you.  Around 3,000 years ago.  They say this is the tale end of yours and his male relationship over the centuries. 

What has been cleared of its discordant energies will release an old male aspect of soul energy between you both.  It's a situation where you felt you harmed him.  He was, in some way, your disciple.  And it feels like he was a young disciple, around the age he is now.  You were male in this incarnation and used your power to bully him.  That is the message I get from his old male aspect from this.’

Saint-Guilhem-le-Desert and surrounds, France

 

Saint-Guilhem-le-Desert - "Situated in a valley near Montpellier in southern France, the Benedictine abbey of Saint-Guilhem-le-Désert was founded in 804 by Guilhem (Guillaume) au Court-Nez, duke of Aquitaine and a member of Charlemagne's court."

Heart tugs

My heart is being tugged all over the place at the mo.

Sigh…

Where do I start?

Our daughter’s partner is being advised to have surgery as his broken neck is not healing properly. Poor kids are stressed as it is, so this is just a bombshell they don’t need. I want to take them both, hold them, cocoon them from the outside world and make it better.

Our son is struggling emotionally with all the transmuting he does. I have offered to help him out or find someone to help him, but he has refused…so he sinks deeper and deeper into himself and finds it difficult to be in the outer world. Again, I want to hold him, cocoon him from the outside world and make it better.

I must honour the path they have both chosen to walk…but damn, it is so hard.

Creating through love

As we were making meditative love this morning I felt expanded…as though I was Mother Earth and hubby was the elements…the sun, the wind, the rain, the leaves, the insects, the butterflies etc.

All of these kiss and touch Mother Earth and love her to their fullest capacity.

We first started practising meditative love making last year when Aeolus integrated with hubby for one brief moment in time last year in July. We would move between ‘hot’ tantra and cool meditative love making without realising we were embracing bits and pieces of Karezza.It simply felt right.

Our meditative love making practice grows daily and through this so called abstinence (which isn’t really abstinence) we are creating the most amazing reality. Admittedly there have been times when the bliss is too much and we have been gently carried over the edge into orgasm…long languid orgasm.

Cocoon of love

‘Just the two of us’ seems to be a theme since we arrived home two weeks ago.

Our son is staying with a friend whose parents are away on holiday. The universe was obviously making sure that this theme continued.

The contented and happy world hubby and I are living in currently seems surreal. All around us there is chaos as everyone seems to be having a hard time.

But you know what? I don’t feel any guilt this time. Why?

It has been explained to me that there needs to be a few ‘somebodies’ who are in a good space as this ‘good space’ needs to be anchored.

Of course we have a few niggles that come up…but these are dealt with so quickly and effortlessly…it seems so much easier to let go and move on.

Earth is Singing Like a Whale, says NASA

http://soundcloud.com/carlfranzen/earth-chorus-emfisis

That’s the sound of the Earth “singing,” as recorded by the awesomely-named Storm Probe mission — a couple of satellites investigating the famous Van Allen belts, intense radiation zones that surround our planet like a doughnut. The Storm Probes, launched last month, are mapping the density of charged particles.

London Paralympics 2012

This was not something either of us had ever considered.

A few weeks before the Olympics started, Greg decided to try for tickets for the Paralympics. I have no idea what drove him to do so, but I reckon we needed to be there.

Tickets were available on Sunday, 2 September, so he bought them.

21-23 September 2012 (including hand-fasting)

Hubby's vows to me

Excerpt from my diary - 21-23 Sept 2012

21 September 2012

I don’t feel much like sharing lately, so I will merely say that every time I transmute something huge for the collective…it helps me…mostly because when everyone moves up…so do I. Service to Others always has its rewards and I so much love and am honoured to do the job…even though at the time it can be hard. But as the collective move up a massive jump it can be disorientating for all of us. It is kinda like a huge wave of energy that sweeps us up into the next vibration.

Good thing I am on holiday this time so I can relax.