Erk…back to ‘normal’.
I have just had my regular three year pap smear done up at the doctor’s surgery. I’ve always viewed them with a jaundiced eye. Every woman knows how awful it is to have a cold thing shoved inside them, then split open and someone scratching around taking a smear. Shudder.
Athena asked me this morning why I view it with such horror. She reminded me that if I see it that way, it will be that way. Oookay. So I changed the energy surrounding it. I do this with the dentist as well, so why not the smear?
‘Put your heels together and allow your knees to flop apart,’ the nurse said. I started to giggle because it reminded me of doing yoga, albeit it a strange form of yoga. Hehe…I said this to the nurse who laughed. This made me happy as she is normally quite dour – she’s done them before for me and has never talked much. This time she was far more talkative.
Walking back home I thought about perceptions and how we create everything in our life second by second.
On our way back to ‘Blighty’ from holiday, I was determined that I would carry the happiness back with me. I thought I had but this morning walking down to the surgery I was reminded of France. Everyone that you walk past greets you with a bonjour – even the younger generation. Whereas here everyone was looking down or elsewhere and never meets your eye. I decided to experiment and put a smile on my face, changed the energy around me and voila! What a difference.
I avoid the doctor’s surgery – I am very healthy so have no need to be there. But on the occasions that I have had to visit, I have been dragged down by the dense energies floating around there. I wonder how anyone can function in the midst of this thick energy. I see this same energy up at the hospital - people dumping their energy on the doctors and nurses. When the sleep unit was still up at the hospital I used to regularly violet flame the estate that the hospital sits on – it is much easier now that we are a stand alone unit. But…we are moving back in December…so I’m probably gonna start doing it again.
Everyone at the surgery was looking so down and unhappy, so I decided to bring a ray of sunshine in there. Some responded with a smile and greeting and others simply stared at me.
It took me many years to realise that every time someone reacts negatively to me in any way – it is normally something within me that has created this reaction, especially if I react back. If there is no corresponding emotional reaction from me – it simply means that that person is threatened by my energy.
So my solution to this (if I find I have a reaction to their reaction) is to treat myself. I take a step back and have a look at what I am harbouring within that caused me to feel the way I do. There is no point in avoiding someone or blocking them because of this reaction. It is you talking to you. You are telling you that there is something within that needs to be addressed. Not looking at what someone else has said to you, serves no-one, least of all yourself. There is a very important message being delivered. If you ignore it, it will return again and again in different forms until you take notice.
It is up to us to take responsibility for whatever energy is attracted to us and change our reactions to it. The choice is always ours to make.
So instead of me feeling slightly down about being back to normal – I have accepted responsibility and decided to create a reality whereby there is sunshine in my life (literally and figuratively) and nothing around me disturbs me. If it does – then I will learn from that energy, clear it and move on.
This shouldn’t be too much of a hardship – I have wonderful memories and a loving relationship – created through years of transmuting and clearing. I am now reaping the rewards of my hard work.
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