Change

My life is poised and waiting for change. How do I know? A feeling. Things have changed dramatically since my illness. Nothing I can put my finger on...

Despite having slipped back into my normal routine I feel different somewhere underneath everything. I still carry a lot of crap but something has shifted deep down inside me.


I know I keep harping on about how important our feelings are. Once again I’m going to harp. Take a short moment to think about the world. What is the world seething with at the moment? Anger, hatred, jealousy, greed, despair…need I go on? How do we all feel? How often during the day do you feel anger, hatred, jealousy, despair? The outer world is a reflection of everything we feel inside.

Think back to a time when you woke feeling really good. Everyone around you responded to your fabulous and happy energy. That’s what I’m talking about. Don’t deny that you feel all those other nasty emotions but deal with them as they come up. Don’t push them down and pretend they don’t exist. It doesn’t matter how cheerful and calm you may seem on the outside deep inside you are crying and bleeding. Bring it up and let it go. Acknowledging it is the first step to healing. Wrap yourself in balance and safety and let your feelings out. You can do this without harming anyone as long as you keep yourself in a safe space. How to do that? Ask the angels to keep you in a safe space as you work through your stuff.

I listen sadly to those that pooh-pooh metaphysical things. How do you know it doesn’t work until you try it? Do we all follow like sheep what we are told from an early age without actually testing to see whether that way really works or not? Those that give us the news are only telling us what they hear. How do they know what the truth is? How do any of us know what the truth is? Truth comes in many flavours and according to the emotional baggage you carry around with you it is coloured to fit in with your version of the truth.

This is what makes the word ‘truth’ so scary. What is the truth? Who knows what is really going on in the world? Are we living in a matrix like the movie suggests? How do we know we don’t? Is there concrete evidence out there? I know you’re going to point so scientists and say ‘look they test all of these theories’. Yes they do but what about those that started off believing the world was flat? How much of it is theory? Have you ever looked at mathematics? It’s mostly abstract and they keep changing.

Your reality is so different from mine. Take for example an accident scene by several witnesses. Each one will give a different description. Why? Because everything we see and experience is coloured by our emotions. Someone confronted by a madman with a knife who has experienced so much trauma in their life will have a different reaction to someone to has never had any such experiences.

I look around and see how many people are terrified. Terrified of what? An idea that something could happen? Why do we all live in fear of something that might happen? How little do we trust ourselves to actually get through something without being scathed? Why do we trust ourselves so little? Where have we let ourselves down? How often do we give our power to others to sort things out because we don’t trust ourselves to do it? Is it real or something we’ve learnt through conditioning? Why are we so terrified of taking back our power and accepting responsibility for everything we create in our lives?

Is it because we don’t want to look deep and see that we have been in denial about how we create whatever we need? I hear people saying ‘oh I manifested this and that’ but when it comes to events and horrible happenings in their lives they deny they manifested it? Why can you do one thing and not the other? Why pick and choose what you’ve created?

Everything that surrounds us is created by us whether consciously or by default. By default I mean that you ignore what is wallowing deep inside yourself that attracts things to you. And then land up blaming someone else when in fact that energy was reacting to your own. What you sew is what you reap. You might not be aware of what you are sewing but that is no excuse. It is time to accept responsibility for all aspects of yourself whether good or bad.

Oh and another thing. Is it good or bad, if you need a certain situation to help teach you about yourself? Stop whining, get off your butts and make a difference.

The world is not going to change unless we change ourselves. The change comes from inside and moves out into the world. The more of us doing this the greater the change. I’m not saying it will be easy. Being a pioneer is never easy. But it is doable as long as you keep focused on what you want to achieve.

My request of you this day is PLEASE PLEASE don’t roll over and play dead. Grab the bull by the horns and make a difference. Not to others but to yourself because starting with yourself you will eventually change the energy around you that will touch others.

We collectively but unconsciously created the world we live in today. Let’s now collectively and consciously create a new one. Okay, I hear you say, we all have different ideas of what we want. Maybe, but don’t we all want peace and harmony? Focus on those two feelings and the rest will follow.