The song Lovefool by the Cardigans has been buzzing around in my head for days.
Cos I've been busy at work, I've not had much time to wonder why. This morning I did a search on YouTube to find the lyrics.
As I was listening and reading, it hit me that this is a message to me from me. The 'old' me talking to the 'new' me.
We are all moving energetically into something new and unknown, and yet we still flirt with the "old" 3D paradigm that is snuggling up to us in the hope that we won't move on. We find ourselves charmed and intrigued by it as we have known nothing else in this lifetime (and possibly many others). It is difficult to let go of that comfortable way of being and step, without regret and nostalgia, wholeheartedly into the unknown.
The backward and forward dance between what my heart's desire and what I've always known - yes no yes no yes no - lost to confusion.
The flirtation and pendulum swinging is all part of the "growing up" that we are going through. And yet it is not our job to reject that part of ourselves that is asking us to love it based on the old paradigm. It is our job to love without reservation.
It is okay.