Batu Caves, Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia

Batu Caves

Living the mastery

 

I AM the dream.

I am a living meditation.

I love the insanely marvelous feeling of mastering...I am not sure what...myself, my energy, my world?

Honestly, it doesn't matter that I cannot identify or name it. It is magic and there are times when little old me pops up and wonders in awe at the changes and has a brief flash of uh-oh.

Making an effort

In discussion with friends the other day, the subject of relationships came up. The question I was asked was - how did I manage the changes every relationship goes through and still have a good relationship with my hubby?

I wasn't really sure how to answer it. I do it organically. As I go along I tweak things, always using the world around me as a gauge to see what needs working on within me. I make mistakes and through my mistakes I learn - well, mostly I learn. Sometimes I gotta hit my head several times before I figure it out!

Starting over

A new world and life beckons. 

Once we’d made the decision that we’d been edging closer to day by day, week by week, month by month, it felt like a load had been lifted from my shoulders. For the last few years we have been a holding pattern, much like a plane waiting to land…and now all the right conditions seem to have clicked into place and we are heading for the landing strip.

Making sure I don't escape!

This past year or more, I've noticed I'd have a vacant - almost drunk look on my face in some photos. I never pondered on it too much until a few months ago when looking at some pics hubby had taken, I realised that there was an inordinately large amount of them. Puzzled, I asked the question - WHY?!

It turns out I've not been completely anchored in my body. With all the energetic changes and occurrences since December 2012, I'd slip out of my body and hubby would happen to take a photo at that moment in time!

Kiama, Australia 2013/2014

Kiama - "Kiama /kaɪˈæmə/ is a township 120 kilometres south of Sydney in the Illawarra, New South Wales, Australia in the Municipality of Kiama. At the 2006 census, Kiama had a population of 12,286 people.^[1] One of the main tourist attractions is the Kiama Blowhole. The seaside town features several popular surfing beaches, caravan parks and numerous alfresco cafes and restaurants. Its proximity to the south of Sydney makes it an attractive destination for a large number of day trippers.^[2]"

Whilst we spent Christmas in Gerringong - we did some sightseeing and Christmas shopping in Kiama.

Illawara Fly Treetop Walk, Australia

Illawara Fly Treetop Walk - "The award winning Illawarra Fly Treetop Walk is one of Australia’s premier treetop walk  experiences. The only walk of its kind in NSW and one of only a handful of elevated steel treeop walks in the world, the ‘Fly’ is an immersive nature experience. The gentle 1.5km return walk takes in native rainforest, the steel walkway which features two gently swaying cantilevered arms, and a central tower raised nearly 50 metres from the forest floor. Positioned 710 metres above sea level, the stunning views take in everything from the rainforest floor into the canopy and out to the Pacific Ocean."

Dawning of something new

So...here we are in Australia...again.

Last year when we came to visit, it took a while to adjust to the strong, slightly harsh energies. The Guardians of the land were distant, extremely formal and not too friendly.

This time feels so very different. We simply slipped into it - no adjustment necessary. The Guardians...wow what a radical change...far more relaxed and welcoming as though we have been pulled into the bosom of our family. It really feels like we've arrived home, not something I was expecting at all.

Recipe for homemade moisturiser

I have amended this a wee bit as I realised, rather belatedly, that it doesn't read very well AND that I left out one ingredient - oops!
 
I have been making my own cleanser and moisturiser for more than 20 years. I started doing this mostly because of the chemicals found in over-the-counter stuff. At least this way I know exactly what I am putting onto/into my body. I am constantly changing the recipe – our bodies like a bit of variety. Some occasions we made need more of one oil than of another.

An oopsie that turned out rather beneficial

Yesterday I decided to make a new batch of moisturiser in readiness for our trip to Oz.

My hand slipped as I was putting the Sesame Oil in. It is usually a quarter teaspoon but it simply sloshed in - oops! Then I added the Vitamin E oil, intending to do a few squirts into the already melted oils, but blow me down...being a new bottle from a range I'd never used before I never realised that it didn't have a squirty top...and a huge blob (half the bottle) plopped out!

Universe in action - I wasn't really thinking about the need for protection whilst in Oz - the temperatures out there this time of year can hit the mid 40s (Celsius). I was simply doing it all by rote, having done it countless times over the years. I do change the recipe on the odd occasion, simply because the skin needs a change and sometimes I feel I need more of one oil than another. But when I do, I think about what I am changing.

Losing of part of me without loving it

I've had a very small sebaceous cyst in my hair for years. It's never bothered me and so I've ignored it...until a few months ago when it started feeling not 'quite right', although I cannot say what it was that made me feel that way.

I finally got my arse into gear and made a visit to the GP surgery. A minor op was scheduled and I had it cut out on Thursday on my way to work - a doddle I thought, like having a tooth pulled.

Hmm...once the local anaesthetic started to wear off, it really hurt like hell and I started to feel rather fluey. But, I figured, being at work until 10.30 that night would keep my mind off the problem and so I got on with it, ignoring the pain...all the while thinking I was being such a poop.

Distributing the dramatic solar energies evenly

Over the last two weeks I kept getting a sore on the roof of my mouth on the hard palate - in the area where it meets the soft palate. Initially I thought it was merely because I was rundown or had eaten something that had caused it or it was part of the ascension symptoms (blah di blah di blah) and it would eventually heal and go away.

But it didn't. It seemed to get worse. In fact started to feel like a burn, was getting bigger and one section of my gum was also getting inflamed with what felt like a burn. 

It could not possibly be a burn, I thought. I tried to ignore it for a day or so, but the 'burn' thought kept bugging me. What could be burning me and why the top of my mouth?

Entropy

I’ve not written for a while…mostly because there is nothing much to say…and yet there is. Anyways, much has been written by others and I have nothing to add to it…as I find myself fully immersed in something far beyond my ken.

A level playing field

At times it feels like all the 'dark nights of the Soul' I have ever had are all combined into one at the moment, creating the most disconcerting place to be.

That which we are/were comfortable with, no longer exists and as a result I feel like I am back at square one - as though just starting my journey all over again - which we are. We might have a few years under our belts, but despite this, it seems we are all in the same boat, whether awakened or not.

Nature's loving embrace stepping up

Downstairs toilet/laundry room

The plants in my house and garden went into overdrive whilst we were away. As a result we live in an overgrown jungle both inside and out! While the gardener's away, the plants will play...

Being in the joy of life

Chatting with a friend recently about my confusion about where I am going and what I am doing, she said, 'This is not like you.'

She's right. I haven't always been very very clear on where I am going in my life, but I've had at least a vague idea. Nowadays, I don't. Not even an inkling, which is rather disconcerting and freaking me out more than a little.

Another friend wrote that I had a whole posse of people waiting for us to be there with them.

The blip that is more...and yet not

Phew!! Being in an intimate relationship these days, negotiating the massive amount of clearing that the planet is experiencing with regard to this, is not easy. But then nothing worthwhile ever is.

I'd been noticing for a while many women I know are in 'anti-man' mode. Puzzled, I've wondered why I was seeing this as it is something I'd cleared many moons ago...but it has obviously been brought to my attention for a reason, so I've bided my time wondering when it would come to a head...or something along those lines.

I did mention a few blogs ago in the blog Open and Vulnerable about how the wrangle between male/female energy is hotting up, but it seemed a mere blip that would pass over pretty quickly - today I am not so sure.

Dear Prudence

Sommieres, France - reflection captured by hubby

Prudence is a word that has been buzzing around in my head for many months, so much so that I keep hearing the song Prudence by Siouxsie and the Banshees. See below for the beautiful lyrics by McCartney/Lennon.

Today I finally decided to look up the meaning wondering if there was something I was missing. The first meaning that popped up on Google was: Acting with or showing care and thought for the future.

Funny that, I'd always thought that prudence meant something different. More like being too cautious or too unadventurous. Huh!

The rocky road of love

Beautiful green butterfly we found on one of our walks in France

We visit France so often so we can connect with the feminine emerging like a butterfly from a cocoon, slowly recognising that this beauty resides quietly within us. These visits have never been a conscious decision - just something that sorta fell into place (according to my human self). It started off as a very delicate unnoticeable hum in the background growing stronger with each visit, thus becoming more evident within us...and we are not sure what to do with it.

This is our version of paradise. Many others might not see it this way - depends on their perception and what they feel is paradise to them.

As hubby and I peel away the layers of our being to find the authentic self, we have to flex and wiggle to fit into the expanded version of who we are individually, as well as a couple, and this is when the sticky bits can and do happen.

Ready or not - here we come

Je t'aime on the boardwalk to Monte Carlo

This is sort of a continuation of my previous blog posted on 27 Sept - Open and Vulnerable.

This past weekend has been quite intense. Today has been a chill out day of R&R.